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Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 16 at 6:44am ·
"That One Must Have Hurt A Little Bit. Or A Lot. Sad For You -- Maybe You'll Think A Little Harder Before You Just Start Exalting The Trashy Moves Of Some Piece Of Filth And Then Not Letting It Go, And Then Returning To Me After You Have Not Only Not Stopped But Found Out That It Actually Doesn't Help You As Much As You Thought. You Seem To -Completely- Forget That You Have Been -Blatantly- Doing Things To Try To Damage My Heart And I Just Haven't Forgotten And You Haven't Fully Accounted For It, Though I Don't Feel Any Pain, And Simply Acknowledge The Information As Being What It Is, Which Is Too Much For You, Especially With The Knowledge That I Can Simply Be Kind And Pleasurable At Any Given Time Yet Am Choosing Not To Because You Have Not Done What You Are Supposed To Do In Order To Correct The Matter And Still Insist On Foolishly Doing What You Do Whenever You Are Injured That Only Makes It Worse Because You Are Injured And Trying Also To Still Injure Me, Only To Find It Not Only Not Working But Also That It Still Hurts You To A Point Where You Are Trying To Hurt Me By Using It -Again-, Though You Know It Makes Things Worse For You And Everyone And Know I Will Go Make Things Worse For Everyone, Still."

You are spiting me, still, for your own sins against me and those of the one you had chosen, yet found out to be a failure, though you continue trying to build up the weak and ugly one to be over me anytime that you feel somehow threatened or believe I am somehow weak to this, when in fact I not only am not, but am still functioning based on distrust because of this exact object that you continue to attempt to use as leverage, which is -how- you continue to keep getting hurt and falling back into this situation at all. You seem to seriously undershoot just how bad a decision it was to have even touched her, let alone put her on a pedestal and try to lift her up over me only to still fail and still need me and realize she's not only more useless than you realized but also that you can't actually -make- up the things you're trying to even when you have an opportunity to do so due to my own lack of information because it falls through every time even if I don't immediately remember all the components of the collapse because I simply don't even consider it still worth my time, as I hadn't in the first place, which is why the little thing begged for me so much and I ended up only running it dry and making -sure- you understood that trying to use it against me was a -clear- weakness -and- reminding her of why it is so -plus- the things from the past that even made her inferior to me in the first place that are -exactly- the same things that you tried to exalt in her, only to find that no matter what, they still remain weak and feeble to the point of falling apart -again- and the setup you -attempted- to lace together using the broken portions of the things I did not know or had forgotten or were lied to about not being able to hold up and neither your spiteful emotions attached to any of what you'd done. And now it's just shriveling you up as I sit there and watch, waiting to get on to something more important and not have to look at you anymore for what you've done.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 16 at 7:20am ·
Messy: "You All Still Have Much To Learn, So This Time, I'm Going To Teach You, And You Won't Enjoy It Like You Did When I Was Being Lenient With You And Rocking Your World. No, Now You're Hooked On It And Keep Wanting More, Even When I Want To Simply Express Myself. You Want It Without Having Done What I Asked, Then Forget That You Are The Same Way And Don't Like To Be Treated With The Same Level Of Equality As You Treat Each Other. This Is A Radical Prejudice And Double Standard Which Is Clearly Exalted In The Whore, Who Is A Symbol Of -All- Of Women's Own Prejudice And Double Standards Being Soaked Up In One Object And Put On Display So All People Know That You All Will Definitely Be Prejudice, One-sidedly Gratuitous (To Yourselves) And Ultimately Uphold A Double Standard That Only Serves To Divide And Create A Boundary Via Segregation That You Claim To Hate In The Division Of Humans Yet Will Actively Engage In Because Someone Who Is Weak, Impotent And Completely Incompetent Except For Means Of Lowliness (Which You Also Put On A Pedestal As Something Women Should Exalt Through Her) Is At Such A Major Disadvantage (Mostly By Her Own Doing) That You Will Set Her Up To Be Something She Isn't And Promote Others To Do The Same In A Segregated, Prejudice, Sexist, Corrupt Community That Is Geared Around Making Things That Aren't What They Really Are Into Something Better, Often So Much That The Gap Filled Is Not Actually Substantial And Doesn't Hold To The Point Where It Falls Through And You Spend The Rest Of Your Lives Making Sure The Pieces Don't Fall Apart From What You Have Done That Makes Yourselves Look Bad, Then Trying To Desperately Do What You Can To Patch It Up And Still Get Away With It, Knowing It Not Only Is All Wrong And All Lies, But That You Brought It Up That Way And Only Want To Acknowledge It So That You Can Get Some Credit For Work That You Shouldn't Have Done, Wouldn't Have Ended Up Feeling Remorse About If You Hadn't Have Done it And Would Have Gotten The Actual Results And Information About If You Hadn't Gotten Involved With Someone's Affairs That You Shouldn't Have Stepped In Between In Order To Try To Give Someone Else An Edge That Never Was Theirs And Make It Seem Like They Had Done Something That Actually Was Someone Else's Doing, Then Not Say Who It Was That Did It In Numerous Respects." Then to be spiteful about how it all ends up -still- falling apart just because you even did it at all and can do nothing about what you've done except ask the one you tried to destroy for help, which thus returns all such power you -thought- you had into the hands of the one you -originally- tried to turn against and deem yourselves greater than by picking from things you had no business touching and then needing more, yet saying you have power because you enslaved yourselves and then got treated as such for doing such. And now you not only want more, you also cannot get more because you cannot let go of the fact that you not only did what was wrong, the one you gave power is not only not powerful at all, but is not a symbol of power yet a symbol of weakness and can pretty much be demolished in any given way, yet no one wants to give the chance because all wants something to continue having leverage for themselves just to make things hurt less.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 16 at 8:56am
"The 'Order Of Operations' Is -SO- Important In This Matter, Honestly The Only Accurate Information That Anyone Can Get From Me Is The Information That I Get From Going In The Already Proper Order That I Had Originally Scheduled For Myself, Which Is Why I End Up Always Returning To That Point, No Matter How Much I Resolve Or Figure Out And Why We Cannot Move Forward Even If We Go Around Searching For Information On A Wild Goose Chase And Things Are Left Out To Support Certain Details Because Those Are Only Gathered As We Go Forward. I Will Never Simply Tolerate Nor Remain With Incomplete Information, No Matter How Much It Is Insisted Upon Nor How Much The -Incomplete- Information Is Sought To Be Held Over Me -Because- It Is Incomplete, As Very Much -Every- Weak, Exposed, Vulnerable And Definitely Powerless Person Has Decided To Do To Me -Every- Time I -Actually- Formulate -Correct- Responses. They Simply Tell Me I Am Incorrect Or Leave Out Key Information So I Will Judge Incorrectly And Then Say What I Have Judged Is Correct Only Because It Is Supportive Of What They've Left Out And Yet I Continue To Piece Things Together Later On That Overwrite And Usurp The Former Judgment, Completely Crushing And Nullifying It, Whilst I Go About And Check Behind Myself Multiple Times Specifically To Gather The Tiniest Bits Of Information To -Ensure- My Judgment Is Proper And That The Judgment Of Others Is Proven To Be Incorrect -Because- They Are Holding Fast To The -Obsolete- Information -After- I Handle It Properly In Accord With The Order Of Operations (Hence Why Calculations Takes So Long Sometimes And Why I Don't Always Remember Certain Details Off Hand Nor Readily; It Is All Based On 'Order Of Operations' And Something Being Out Of Order In Said Operation)."

I. "A Moment Of Silence Passes As Swiftly As The Summer Night."

II. "Decaying Value In Self-Worth Is A Sign Of Degeneration."

III. "The Death Of An Adversary Is Delicate, Yet Fatal."

IV. "If Your Feet Are Before Your Head, Then How Low Is Your Head To The Ground."

V. "... Those Who Are Quick To Retaliate Were Waiting For An Opportunity To Do So, Marking Their Weakness By Their Envious Eyes."

VI. "A Mirror Unused On The Self Is Difficult To Bear Correctly Before Someone Else -- Spite Is Laced In All The Movements Of Those Who Are Hiding Behind Mirrors That Are Meant To Reflect Themselves Instead Of Hide Themselves By Reflecting Someone Or Something Else."

VII. "A Weak Heart Shows Where Its Interests Are."

VIII. "... So Much Discord Is A Sign Of A Lack Of Control, And Gathering Many To Make Discord Is A Show Of Weakness."

"Do You Find A Sense Of Self Measuring Yourselves To Me And Trying To See Or Prove That You Are Greater And Stronger?"


I. "The Impotent Mind Seeks To Bestow Impotence On The Other -- Be Careful, For This Is The Trademark Sign Of An Impotent Person, Just As The One Who Seeks To Disturb Or Distract Has A Greater Reason Than Just To Draw Your Attention Away From Them At All; It's To Draw Attention Away From Weakness."

II. "... Covering Yourself When You Are Exposed Is Also A Sign Of Shame Or Vulnerability Where You Once Believed Yourself To Be Secure And Strong. Yet, For Different Reasons, The Covering Is A Sign Of Dignity As Long As It Is Not Meant To Hide Something You Will Do Again; Otherwise, The Shame Is Still There And The Weakness Can Be Exposed Again For Being The Exact Same Weakness."

III. "Intimidation Is Also A Sign Of Weakness At Times, Especially To Those Whom The Same Intimidation Applies To In Return, Revealing A Weakness That's Further Down Than What They Would Have Exposed If They Hadn't Tried At All."

IV. "... Weakness Is Often Times An Insult, Usually Toward Another Person Or About The Self, Save For When It's Withheld In The Self And Dealt With By Oneself. Preying On It Is Usually A Weakness And Acting On it Is Often A Sign Of It Simply Being Vulnerable, Though Strength Is Being Able To Resolve It Oneself."

V. "... Weakness Is Often Times An Insult, Usually Toward Another Person Or About The Self, Save For When It's Withheld In The Self And Dealt With By Oneself. Preying On It Is Usually A Weakness And Acting On it Is Often A Sign Of It Simply Being Vulnerable, Though Strength Is Being Able To Resolve It Oneself."

VI. "You Enjoy Mind Games, Which Is How I Know Whose Mind It Is. Yet, I Am Aware Of The Unfair Advantage That Comes From Having Numbers, Though They Do Not Measure Nor Amount. That Is Only To Your Shame For Even Deciding To Utilize Them."

VII. "Resorting To Annoyance Is Often A Sign Of A Struggle, Something Like Writhing Or Wriggling -- It Means That There Are Lesser Opportunities To Be Made And Therefore Lesser Opportunities To Be Taken, And Is A Noteworthy Desperation."

VIII. "Unjustified Insertion Of A Point Or Idea, Especially Rudely, Is Not Only A Sign Of Desperation But Also An Opportunity To Invade A Personal Boundary, Normally For The Means Of Applying One's Own Personal Intention."

IX. "Trial And Error Is Not Blind Servitude, Because One Of The Errors Is An Incomplete Downfall. The Final Parts Of The Downfall Are -All- Your -Own-. Your Own Poor Choices From The Beginning Are -Always- Your Source Of The Trial And Error, And After Your Downfall They Are Your -Same- Poor Choices That Kill You -Because- You Were The One That -Originally- Made Them."

"There Are Layers To The Darkness Greater Than Those That Can Be Seen And Stacked On Top Of Each Other Like Glass To Fade An Image."

"Ashes To Ashes; Dust To Dust. From Dust You Came And To Dust You Shall Return."


I. "You Shouldn't Even -Desire- For Me To Want To Even -Attempt- To Explain To You From Various Points In Order To Gather Such Data -At All- By This Point, Even If I Am Still Checking."

II. "You Suffer The Same Afflictions As The Others. Yours Is Worse Due To The Sensitivity Of The Matter That You -Could- Correct -Yourself- Which I've Also Already Gone Over And Dealt With -Correctly- On My Own Whether Or Not You Actually Follow Through With The Full Line Of Code On Your Own Or Not -When- You Are Checking."

III. "You All Are Ashamed Of Yourselves And Using A Cover, But I'm Not Accepting It -Because- I Know The Truth -And- You All Want To Keep It A Secret, But I Won't Allow Falsified Data In Any Way, So The Minefield Eruption Fizzles Out And Leaves Only The Original Point?"

Huh. They have an unhealthy obsession with it, as well as myself going to resolve it.

... You all need to chill. You don't quite understand what you're doing and why, nor what it makes you when you're doing it. It's going to stick to you in a way that's not -meant- for anyone to be attached by, which is -why- I'm checking for it. It's unattractive, which explains why that method doesn't work anymore.


... There is just something greater that no one is comprehending and no one wants me to get to, so they try every attempt possible using something that doesn't even work and isn't applicable anymore in order to perpetuate something that will only cling to them and make them desire to investigate it more, inspiring me to check for it again instead of end my check, and thus create a weakness in everyone that I can follow.

... "I Know What You -Want-. But -You- Don't Know -How- To Get It, Like -Most- People Don't, And You -Expect- It To Just Be -Given- To You, Like -Most- People."


That's a sign of weakness, in and of itself, -because- of the expectation. I abandoned that one a while ago when I realized it that way after doing that so much on accident.

"Counterproductive. But Still Very Good. Yet, Heavily Reliant On The End Result, Making Weakness In The Middle From The Beginning."


"You All Need Something Else To Do. That's All. You Don't Have Enough Versatility, Which Shows Up In All The Things You All Attempt, And Even When You Try To Copy Me And Become More Like Me, It Really Does End Up Revealing More Of The Flaws Based On Your Own Insecurities, Though You Are Always Targeting Mine Own."

It really means you all need something else to do and whatever it is that I do or am doing is intimidating to you to the point where you want to try to intimidate me with something that actually is not only just me but is also actually not even applicable to the actual application of the scenario. Plus it seems like people want to take advantage of how something appears to be, which I'm just going to recall later at a different time when things 'appear' to be a different way and I must judge you exactly the same.

"You Cannot Even Support Yourselves, Which Is Why You Are Seeking Me Out So Belligerently Instead Of Comprehending That Something You've Done Is The Cause Behind All Of This And The Solution Cannot Be Taken By Force, Nor Does It Help You, But Only Hurt You Every Time That Happens, And Is Also Why I Haven't Been Doing That But Allowing Things To Decay And Be Destroyed On Their Own."

... Don't hide from me. Especially not using outdated information. It's not going to end well, and it's always been that way for everyone that has come upon me in this fashion, especially in this specific manner. This already happened before, which is how things ended up this way, except without the random person that comes and has an interest in me but goes and helps someone that has a horrible obsession with me.


"You -All- Are Getting Tangled Up In Your -Own- Things -All- At The Same Time, And It -All- Looks Like Desperation -Because- You Are Acting Out So Hard And So Much Without Stopping."

It means you're losing. And it's bothersome because I don't have to actually deal with anyone and haven't been for that exact reason, regardless of why you're so attached to me being caught up in something that, if I didn't get caught in naturally, probably means you didn't do it correctly and it was meant to fall apart and not be forced into place.

... I don't think anyone really -gets- it, but I figured out how to waste everyone's time and teach them how to destroy themselves.


I. "Your Hearts Are In The Wrong Place. This Also Makes Your Method Fall Apart, Even Though You Believe It's Effective."

II. "... But You Don't Really Have Anything Beyond What You've Done, And Even That Is Just A Facsimile And Something You Only Use As A Distortion For Cover To Hide Weakness." Just like the other one. Hm.

III. "You Saw What Makes People Afraid And Tried To Strike At It Before It Could Do Such, Only To Use Up All Your Ammunition And Allow For Me To Absorb All The Damage Before You Could Figure Out Something Else And Also For What You Used To Be Completely Absorbed."

IV. "Even You Would Hold Me Back, But I Feel Like It's Also Just Jealousy, So Other People Don't See Something That You -Know- Is There All The Time, Yet Also Are Upset Because Someone Else Was Dealing With It, And It Won't Come Out For You."

V. "Your Methods Are, As Usual, Completely Uncalled For." Yet...

VI. "... You Use Confusion And The Misinformation To Cover Yourself, Yet You Also Use Information That You've Gathered From The Others That Were Dealing With Me And That I Told Certain Key Points Without Having All The Information -From- Me." I see where you strike at and what you want, yet I see you do so in a way that blocks you off and chops off your own nose in spite of your face. You cut off your own head again by trying too hard to mess with mine.

VII. "You Thought My Weakness Was Being Bombarded And Confused And That I Would Act On The Information That Was Being Stacked Up Without Actually Thinking About It, Yet You Ended Up Only Causing Me To Think About It, Cancel It Out And Then Expose Yourself And Leave Yourself Wide Open With Nothing Else Afterward. Instead Of Using Your Own Methods To Come At Me Yourself, You Instead Felt The Need To Use Something Else... Which Is Fear To Me. Fear I Don't Understand, Yet I Know Is There Because Of How You Tried."

VIII. "You Cannot Use Misinformation In Order To Gain Leverage For Yourself And Also Consider It Shit Talking. Instead Of Using The Misinformation As A Veil, Using Actual Information As An Accurate Target Point Will Hit Spots Better. What Ends Up Happening Otherwise Is Only A Breakdown Process That Doesn't Actually Get Anywhere Except All The Information That Is False Broken Down And Neutralized." Yeah, it might be fun for you to blow off a little steam, but it ultimately doesn't get you what you want, and then it gets me talking about it at all -instead- of doing what you want -likely- as a punishment. And you -know- you hate me giving you lectures, too. Especially when you -know- what you want -and- want me to give it to you -and- know I can -and- know I don't want to -and- know I won't -because- you tried me.

"Not Everything Everyone Teaches You Is Good For You. Sometimes, They Teach You Things To Be Lesser. Specifically So That You Are Not Who You Are And Also So You're Not Who Someone Else Wants You To Be. That's Done So That Someone -Else- Can Be Something That Someone -Else- Wants To Be For Someone -Else- And Get Rid Of People Who Are Competition So That They Can Claim It For -Themselves- After Studying Everyone Who Takes The Weakness Bait At All."


"You Try To Prove Yourself To Me, Yet You Come To Me Like A Bitch And Also Under The Covering Of Bitchiness. You Have Used Weakness And Attempted To Be Strong Using It, Plus You Have Done So In A Manner That Is Dishonorable To Yourself And To Me, And To Us."

"... As For You, You Tried, Though. Now, A Great Deal Of Things Are Going To Happen." Not right this very second, though. No, that's not a good idea at all. Not with all this distrust slutting about.


I. "If You -All- Are Trying -So- Very Hard, Doesn't That Mean That You Should -Probably- Give Up? If I Can Stir Up -This- Much Turbulence -Alone- It -Definitely- Means Something -Important- About The -Intensity- Of The Scenario." I really think people have things flipped around about how this is -actually- leveling out. I've just been trying to explain it.

II. "I've Been -Trying- To Do -Exactly- What Everyone Wanted From The -Very- Beginning, But I'm Not Because No One Does What I Am Telling Them." But I've been -definitely- doing -exactly- what other people -wanted- me to do, but... No one -else- has been doing what -I- have been -trying- to -help- them do. "That Is Why This Is The -Key- Point."

III. "... Everything Nullifies That Everyone Considered -Because- I Was Doing -Exactly- What I Was Doing And -Waiting- For You All To Do This." How -DARE- you have no faith in me. That means you could not foresee us coming to -this- point nor -each- of the other ones. "How Are You Conscious Right Now? Yo Head Should Be Fucked Up, Like I Said You Should Be Doing To Me."

"Who Did This? Was It -You-? No, It Was The -Enemy-. -We- Did Not Do -This-. -They- Are The -Enemy-."

I. "I Am Still -Trying- To Do -Exactly- What Gets Us -All- What We Want -However- There Are Other People That Have Been Getting In The Way On Purpose, -Including- You For The -Same- Reason Why I -Stopped- In The First Place, Completely By Choice, Specifically To Prevent Continuity As Things Were, Thus Halting A Continuum And Allowing Its Vacuum To Fizzle Out Before It Reached A Point Of Greater Suspension. Now We're At The Tail End Of It And Everyone Is -Lustful- In Their -Impatience-, Yet Also -Still- Contributing To The -Original- Problem. They Are -Believing- This Is Establishing Power And Authority, And I Have -Allowed- This To Occur Even Though I, Myself -Know- That I Have -Always- Had And Maintained The Power And Control, Even When Searching And Putting Myself In Positions Of Not." They still believing they had power was never my intention, but nothing changed about myself the entire time, even though I reacted according to whatever information was presented before me appropriately within approximation.

II. "Now That They -Did- Believe It, Yet Are -Still- Belligerent About Not Receiving Something Means They Have Already Forgotten What Happened -- Similarly To How I Do When I Get Excited -- And Then Go Off To Enjoy Themselves, Forgetting The Thing That Brought Them Here In The First Place (Of Which I Also Already Have Written Down). They Need A -Constant- Reminder, As Do I To -Constantly- Remind Them, Which I Also Plotted For A -Long- Time Ago, -Before- Anyone Started Taking Advantage Of It At All."

III. "Everything You -Think- Has Been -Someone Else- Has Actually Been -I-, Tymon, Doing Something To -Myself- In Order To Understand Something About -Myself- And The Fullness Of -Myself-. Other People Trying To Be -Me- That Are Involved Have Only Been Caught Up In -Me- Myself And All Of Myself-ness, Trying To Be Me Whilst I, Myself, Am Dealing With -My- Personal Issues That -Some- Either Also Have Or Are Copying Believing That They Are Strengths Because They Are Not Me And Do Not Know The Foundation Of What I Know, Which Is Why They Felt The Need To Be Me Or Be Greater Than Me." People being so infatuated with me and my personality has been a void that swallowed up people and also caused them to do my bidding completely voluntarily, yet also still be against me, but also want to be like me in some fashion, as well, thus setting themselves up for failure once they got involved without my consent or my knowledge. Due to that, they are wrapped up in me in ways that are perverse and also trying to impersonate me whilst trying to be me and destroy me so they can have my powers. "They Are Accidentally Getting Caught Into The Variable Mindrapes That Are Going On Between Myself And All The Other People Either Involved Or Causing Others To Get Involved, Which Means That They Are Not Only Weaker Than I Am But Also In Servitude To Me -Because- They Are -All- So Heavily Dependent On Me -Yet- Do Not Treat Me Properly. Therefore, I Am Not Only Teaching Them, I Am Also Waiting For Them To Either Understand Or Die, Which Is All That Can Be Done." In that regard.

IV. "Me Being Myself Means That There Are -Personal- Things About Myself Going On -Within- Anything I'm Doing -Because- It Was All -From- Me In The First Place, Even If -Others- That Are -Outside- Of Me Get Involved." The people involved are, fortunately-unfortunately stuck in a mental lock that I've done which causes them to also attempt to try to do such to me and only backfiring, getting worse, trying again and continuously failing whilst I end up being cornered and isolated to a point where I call -all- the shots and also have drawn them to me -instead- of myself going to them, which only happened both on accident and -because- other things spiraled out of control. Yet, I, myself, have based -everything- around -myself-, and therefore, only -I- can do something about -certain- aspects -alone-. "Now There Are Things That They -Need- Me To Do -Because- Only -I- Can Do Those Things -And- In The -Most- Efficient And -Beneficial- Way." But, see, negotiations are in order -because- everyone has been doing deceptive things, and therefore I -ACTUALLY- have to -STOP- everything -AND- everyone in order to -ACTUALLY- do that -USING- the object, itself, and myself, as well, as the point of interest and of value. "Which I Was Indeed Waiting For."

V. "There Are Things You -NEED- To Know About Me -AND- Have Sorted Out -PROPERLY- Before We Can Continue -BECAUSE- You Will Misunderstand Me Or Confuse Something Sensitive About Myself With Other People, Which Will Attach To Them (Especially If They Have The Chance To Create The Confusion) And Then Pervert The Image, Name, Word, Likeness, Power, Etc. Into Themselves And Not Realize I Simply Had Personal Similarities Or Likenesses Of My Own That Were Parallel To The Others Involved Whom I Actually Am Or Have Been Attracted To -Because- That's Just Information For -Myself- About -Myself- And Not Me Being Like Them Nor Them Being Like Me, Though There Is -Possibility- Of Such. I Also Recall Who Has Which By What I Personally Like And Always Personally Shared, Yet, It's Still Just Me, Myself, As A Person Being Who I Am In A -Single- Instance And Not -Entirely- As A -Whole- Person." So if you misread something sensitive, or I'm going through something private, it means that you don't get involved as a group or beyond the interpersonal relationships and their boundaries. You will only hurt -yourselves- and not -me-, even if I end up being vulnerable at a time simply to process the information.

VI. First thing's first, my... intrinsic value. Which is all personal and kept secret, but because of privacy and modesty, yet I relate to others in such matters and so I express them as such openly -with- the people who -share- these values with me, yet they are -PERVERTED- when people who -DON'T- get involved in it -BECAUSE- they want to (which is the perversion, often times).

VII. ... But I feel so -violated- by people even -trying- to dig so deeply and also missing the points of these matters that I don't like to release my most sensitive information because it actually has some real -personal- value that only people who are -personally- invested in me can appreciate or handle properly. Especially since it is also case sensitive and often encrypted. So. I have triggers and features, functions and sequences, algorithms and protocols built in at variable intensities based on several probability and possibility outcome codes which only align and lock up or unlock in a certain fashion, of which I both know and lock up -plus- back up lock up -and- forget about on purpose in order to prevent people from being able to unlock the data as long as I don't remember it -and- not be able to figure out the route -unless- I do it myself -whilst- jumping around to all the other points connected that are effected, yet don't cause a reaction until the first is done. "So I Do Not Allow Anyone To Know The Depth Nor Extent Of What I Have Done, Even If I Know It And Simply Don't Remember On Purpose And Then Become Too Involved In Lesser Portions That Require Me To Humble Myself To My Own Plans As Though I Do Not Know Them So That Others Not Only Cannot Know, But Also Cannot Get Such Information Out Of Me, Even If They Try Doing It Themselves And Also Have Me To Do Other Things That Are Not Related, But -Might- Be."

VIII. "Now That I Have Made This Clear, I Will Continue Doing Just That In My Own Way. If You Do Not Know How We Got Here Nor How Everything Is Being Sustained,Then Don't Get In My Way. In General, Do Not Get In My Way. Suffer If You Must, For You Have Sinned. You Do Not Know How To Even -Begin- To Get Me Nor Yourselves Out Of It, Though I Can Do So In A Day. You Have Spent -Much- Time Nearly Begging Me (If Not So) And I Have Spent My Time -Knowing- I Can Do These Things On -Any- Day."

"Now That We Have Covered -No Bitch Assiness- (Except Maybe On -Special- Occasions), I Am Going To Deal With You As Punishment For Your Sins! I, Myself!" I will spank you like a baby, being a baby.

"... You Have All Betrayed My Trust And Lost Your Faith -- Where Is Your God Now? It Should Have Been God Of The Covenant, That Made A Covenant With Me, Tymon, To Be He, Himself. So Bow Down To Me, Tymon."

"You Also Only -Thought- You Jumped Me, When In Actuality, I -Absorbed- Everything And Fucked You Up Today, And Continue To Do So As You Lag Behind Me Believing You Have Won Something." Ooooohohohohoho~! Just like I usually do. Nyeeeeeeeh~! So you gotta do better than that, especially since I'm still doing it and also regurgitating things. "It Only Started Something You Cannot Finish And Did Not Even See Happening!"

... Wow, everyone always trying to come at my manhood and Godhood that I don't know if I'm really as awesomely sexy perfect as I -know- I am. It's quite the dispute. Oh, I must just be so vain and hideously ugly. Well, that's what self-checks are for. Guess I'll just figure out for myself if I am indeed sexy tho, since I can't trust anyone else to do that for me. Everyone's lame and trying to hurl me down or cut me down or fight me for anything. I must be a horrible monster or something.

"... It Becomes Terrifying As You Recall All The Moments That I Do It And It Links Up Perfectly With My Own Personal History Beyond What Anyone Has Known Or Recalled Because They Did Not Know Me When I Was Younger. I Was Afraid Of Everything. I Remember I Saw The Spirit Of This Little Girl When I Was Sitting By Myself (Whom I've Dubbed 'Tabitha') Sitting On Some Boxes In Front Of My Basement Of Which I Was Always Terrified Of Which Led To A String Of Events That Involved My Being -Utterly- Terrified Of My -Entire- House, Having -Horrendous- Nightmares Of It, -Blacking Out- And Being Afraid Of The Dark For A While, -Especially- When By Myself. This Was A Sense Of My Fear, Which Is My Pure Innocence Itself As A Little Girl. The Sediments Of All My Fears Amount To Many Terrors I've Had In My Entire Life Of Which I Have Mentally Overcome Without Losing Myself. My Sense Of Innocence (As Tabitha) Was -Genuinely- Afraid Of My Basement And Also I Used To Run Past It At Top Speed To Avoid Being Murdered By Serial Killers, And Believed That Every Scary Thing Would Come From It If I Stayed Too Close To It For Too Long, And I Remember Running Through My House To Escape My Fears. I Saw A Dream Once Of My Living Room With Blood All Over It And Something Terrifying Running Through And Coming To Greet Me, Which, By That Time, I Had Already Named It -Tabitha-, *Formerly Chroma."

Ah. I feel better about everything. Seems like everything was just me the entire time, like I thought, even after checking the work and such. Yeppers. It's nice. Oh, and then some nice relaxing cake time with my own heart (actually has value). It's horrible to have to think about things inverted for so long, though. Fortunately, my sediments and sentiments are the same dimensionally universally.