Personal Address Of Social Restrictions

"I Believe I Have Misjudged My Trajectory And Capacity To Believe I Could So Quickly Juggle Business And Leisurely Things, But Looking Back On It And How Much I Have To Do Continually In Order To Make A Dent Compared To The Frequency Of The Recreational Leisure Time (Non-Inclusive To The Leisure Of Simply Being By Myself And Taking A Break From My Works), I See That Will Prove To Only Be A Detriment By Trying To Incorporate Something Into My Already Very Busy And Progressively Getting Busier Life Which Is Not Directly Conducive To The Trajectory -- Rather, Not Geared Towards The Progression Of My Works And Business."
-Address-

"I Recognize Now That Given The Trajectory Of My Own Life And That Of Others, It Would Not Be A Very Smart Time To Try To Go In So Many Directions, Especially When I Benefit Most And Have The Most Necessity For The Direction Of My Growing Works. Nothing Else Is More Important To Me At This Time, Because The Timing Is So Critical. A Lot Of People From Businessmen To Friends And Family Want My Attention Or Whatever It Is They Want, But Almost Always, It's Veering Me In A Direction Revolving Around Their Lives And Not My Own Life, As If They Are Incapable Of Understanding The Necessity Of Me Focusing On My Works Whilst They Are On The Upswing."
-Focus-

"I Fear That This Is Largely Because I Have Possibly Overexcited Some Who Pay Attention To Or Have Been More Involved With My Progression, And I Just Underestimated The Reaction Of Everyone Who Is At Least Remotely Capable Of Recognizing A Little Bit Of What's Going On. But Of Course, Just Knowing 'I'm Progressing' Is Not Enough, Because I Would Guess That Because They Don't Fully Grasp The Ways I Am, They Don't Understand Why It's So Important, Because It Is Not Happening To Them. Due To That, I Will Have To Account For What Happens When People Are Exposed To Information Prematurely And Act Upon It Before It Is Ripe To Do So. Over The Course Of My Life, It Is Usually My Mother Who Gets So Overzealous, Which Is Why I Refrain From Telling Her All Too Much. She Likes To Get Involved, And She Means Well, But This Is Not The Type Of Scenario That Requires Much Help Beyond Whatever I Directly State."
-Analysis-

"I Did Also Take A Hiatus From Furcadia, As People From There Can Tell, Because I Have Not Logged On In A While, But That's Also Largely Because Lots Of People Like To Randomly Socialize, Or Want To Do Something, Especially When I Am In The Middle Of Something And Only Have The Window Up For Convenience And Ease Of Access. I Am Aware That It Makes People Sad And Feeling Down When I Am Not Online To Do Things, But I Really Cannot Prioritize The Wants Of Someone Else Over The Absolute Necessities Of My Own Life, Even If It Makes All Of These People Feel Really Sad Or Unloved Or Sensitive Or Whatever Else, Because Feeling Lonely Or Social Or Whatever Is Nowhere Near As Important As An Establishment Of Business Opportunities. So It's Just Me Socializing With Anyone Outside Of Myself At This Time That Seems To Be A Hindrance To Me, Even In The Tiniest Fragments -- As I Have Witnessed Whilst Dealing With Plentiful Other People In Other Just The Last Week's Time."
-Personal-

"These Sentiments Are Not Short Enough For Me To Readily Explain To Any One Person At Any Time, So I Cannot Really Beneficially Relay This Sort Of Information, Since There Are LOTS Of People I Would Have To Explain That To, And That Is Not The Move At All. I Just... REALLY Underestimated People's Wishes To Be Near Me Since For Years And Years When I Was WORKING On These Things That Are Coming Together Now, No One Gave Me The Time Of Day, But Since Things Are Coming Together, Plenty Of People Have Changed Their Tune. Then There Are Those Just Jumping On The Bandwagon Because They Were Suddenly Exposed To What I Do Or To Me At All And Then Want To Have More Experiences Because They Enjoy Me Or Like What I'm Doing Or Whatever Makes Them Enjoy Their Time With Me."
-Research-

"This Is Also Likely Because I Deviated From My Own Instructions To Myself To Not Involve Myself Too Heavily In Others Whilst I Am Progressing. I Know Better, For One, Considering This Is Not Only Not The First Time, They Also Still Likely Largely Don't Register The Actual Gravity Or Scale Of What I Need To Do. For Any Number Of Reasons. But It's Always Been That Way, And I Suppose I Just Didn't Recognize That It Wasn't The Proper Time. I Have Been Trying To Be Empathetic To The Wishes Of Others Who Feel Strongly About Me, But I Think It Just Makes Them Less And Less Capable Of Recognizing The Importance Of My Things Over The Belief Of The Importance Of Their Things To Me That They Find Important To Themselves. With A Great Number Of People Constantly Wanting My Involvement With Something That Detracts From What I Need To Do, Whether It's Wanting My Company To Travel, Wanting Me To Help With A Project, Hang Out For Casual Leisure Time For However Long, Or Anything Else Arbitrary That People Enjoy Doing Which Requires Long Period O My Being Taken From What I'm Doing. I Am Just Not At That Point In My Life Right Now, And I Need To Accept That I Cannot Do Both At This Time."
-Professional-

"I Also Must Come To Terms With The Fact That This Is Not A Situation That Can Be Explained To Another And Worked Around Or Compromised About. It Is Something That Can Only Be Done By Me, Is Only Understood By Me, And Requires Me To Be Constantly Tending To, Like A Growing Baby. Things Have Actually Changed Quite Severely, But I See That The Perception Of It Has Only Really Hit Me Because Only I Know What I'm Doing. So I See How That Could Easily Have Grown Into A Misinterpretation Of Others Based On My Perception Only Of Myself, And The Presumption That What I Am Doing Makes So Clear And Legible Sense That It Would Be Easy For Anyone Who Is Not Me To Realize It. But They Wouldn't Know The Difference Because It All Looks The Same To Them, Or They Aren't Paying Attention, And The Largeness Of My Things Just Looks Like Me Messing Around In My Clutter. Which I Can Use As A Perceptive Advantage, But That's Not Really Something I Am Thinking About. But I See Now That This Needs Time To Register To Others, Or Else I Won't Complete This In A Timely And Orderly Manner, Which Is Exactly What I Need -- Time And Order."
-Virtue-

"I Am Sure Things Will Level Out In Time. But For Right Now, I Think It Is Best For Me To Even Further Minimize My Social And Recreational Time Outside Of My Works And Doings. This Was Just Something I Needed To Recognize Before It Got Out Of Hand. I Assure You That I Honestly Forget How Many People Actually Like My Company And Want To Be Involved Because I Don't Really Think About It At All, Especially When In Flux Or In Passing. I Don't Go Into Retrospect About Too Much Because I Have So Much Other Stuff To Think About And Don't Have Time To Be Thinking Of Useless Or Non-Productive Things For Too Long, Because It Will Neutralize My Productive Thoughts. Yes, This Is Something That Can Only Be Understood From The Captain's Chair. Everyone Has That Point In Their Lives At Some Time, But So Few Recognize When It Is Time For Another To Experience It, And Then Emotions Are High. But Again, This Is Not The Time For Emotion, This Is The Time For Business. So A Few Hurt Feelings For A Meager Amount Of Time Will Never Trump A Lifetime Career Opportunity. Never."
-Review-

"That Said, After Much Contemplation, I Will Have To Very Much Restrict My Social Activity. Other People Who Like To Be Social Will Like To Be VERY Social, To A Point Where The Socializing Is A Hindrance To Me, Even If It Is A Boon For Someone Else. That Is Not My Responsibility; My Own Life Is, So That Is Where My Focus Is. With That, I Have Much To Do Already At This Hour, Which Is Why I Wake Up Every Day At This Hour, When Most People Are Asleep, And I Can Work In Peace Without Someone Getting A Bright Idea To Bother Me Somehow With A Phone Call Or A Text Requesting Me To Hang Out, Or People Coming Over, Or Even Online Things, Like Gaming And General Frequent Social Chatting. Even Social Media Is Useless To Me Right Now Because I Have No Necessity For Being Social At All To Any Degree, Whereas Socializing For Others Is An Everyday Thing That Has Grown Important To Them, So They Cannot Fathom It Being Wholly Unimportant To Me Because It Is Important To Them, And That Alone Is Grounds For Me To Separate -- Being Incapable Of Recognizing The Importance Of Me, My Life, And My Work Over Socializing, Recreation, And Their Own Lives Or Time. Thing Do Not Align Nor Compare Sometimes, And It Is Because Different Things Happen To Different People At Different Times Which Do Not Just Always Line Up With What Anyone Wants All The Time, Even If They Work At It To Try To Make It So. Not Every Aspect Of Anything Can Be Controlled At All Times."
-Mission-

"I May Even Need To Resort To More Extreme Measures Of Avoidance Of Social Activity, Such As Following The Weather And Also Trends Or Events Going On, So I Can Know What People Care About That I Don't, What To Avoid, How To Avoid It, When, How Long, And Any Such Other Factors That Tie Into The Randomized Variables Of A Person's Whims Or Wills To Do Anything Based On Any Number Of Things. I Will Cut Off A Great Deal At First, Then Slowly Feel Out How Much More Must Be Constricted Or Restricted."
-The Wilderness-

='The Wilderness'=

"By Being Formally Recognized On My First Ever Published Work And Also Receiving Many Other Good Reviews From Others In Other High Places, I See That My Writing Skills Are Indeed Where I Need Them To Be, And That This Proves Undeniably That Everyone Who Ever Doubted Me Or Had Negativity Towards Me And My Progress Were Wholly Wrong, Even Down To The Way I Choose To Type Or Write. None of Them Are Accomplished Writers And Some Are Not Published, So It Never Bothered Me Before, But I Like To Know The Things People Think That Are Negative So I Can Fully Assess Them, Since It's Easier To Assess Someone Who Is Negative Than One Who Is Positive Or Faux Positive. There Will Come A Time For 'I Told You So', But Now Is Not The Time. I Have Much More Important Matters To Attend To Than Any Kind Of Remote Thought About Anyone Or Anything That Is Not Directly What I Am Doing."
-Absolute Punishment-

='Absolute Punishment'=

"Seven Of Spades :: Natural Emanation : Variable ; Warp."
-Harsh Truth-