Tymon's Dangerous Sex Drive (WARNING)

... This is what I keep hidden from people about my own personal sex drive when I'm actually fired up. I don't like it because I feel like if I get too intense, I might end up severely harming or killing people, but I also like it because it makes sex hotter. There's a balance of my own restraint and the passion or fury when I'm invested in it. If I get too rough, it proves to be dangerous because I don't like to hold back nor to stop, which can be problematic. I usually keep myself restrained because of this and don't actually let it out or reveal it at all. I've only shown glimpses of it because I'm afraid of hurting people and then I get self-conscious and somewhat sad... It's because it's actually who I am as a person and I've been this way since I was younger. I like lots of really messed up things that stimulate me sexually, and I know it's both terrifying and sometimes threatening, but all of it is geared toward my own sexual stimulation and potential and attraction and ventilation and tension and frustration.

I. "I've Been Keeping What -Attracts- And -Damns- Them -Private- And -Secret- Because It Has To Do With My -Privates- And -Personal- Relationships, All Of Which -Cannot- Be Understood To The Same Depth By One Who Simply Is Not In It." - Mindfuck (Mindrape)

II. "I've Been Doing That Because I -Like- People And Have My Own Feelings, But It Ends Up As Me -Accidentally- Preying On Them And Stimulating Them To Do The Same To Me, And I Have To Understand Not Only That It's Learned But It's Also Done Out Of Affection Or Love."

III. "Because I Am The One That Does This -And- I Can Tell, -I- Am The One That Checks, No Matter How Bad It Is, And The First One That Attempts To Neutralize Or Nullify It If At All Possible."

IV. "-Failure- Of -Inspection- Means -Death-" Is what I've been -TRYING- to tell you for a -REASON-. >>;

... Now, in order to partake of a fine angel cake, you must first lick the frosting off of the top...

"It Must Be... The Most -Painful-."

"Bitch Slap."

... But, How Are You Liking This Mindfuck, As Was Done To Your Slave Girl Lackey, Eh? ^^

"That's It. That's The One. Now, Watch Me Snatch At All Those Cute Little Weak Spots." Pure -malice- right? "And -YET-..."

"... I Must -Seriously- Contemplate Whether I Will Continue To Malice You Further For Fun. That Is A -Very- Deep Reflection, Though I Already Have My Two Absolute Possibilities Secure For Myself."

Maybe I should step off and make you -suffer- a little bit...

... What -REALLY- makes me mad, though, is that you -SERIOUSLY- thought I was a fucking pussy.

"What's The Matter? Scared? You're Not Pushing Up On Me Real Hard, Trying To Overpower Me. You Must See Such Is Futile, Even When You're Going All Out." ;9 How cuuuuuuuuuute. "Harder, Bitch."

"... Get It -All- Out."

... Tasty. "-ESPECIALLY- Because You -THOUGHT- I Was A Little -BITCH- Like -YOU-."

Ooo, do you like how open my neck is? Just try to slit my throat or snap my neck or something. "Shut Me Up, Yeah? Snatch Out My Tongue With Your Teeth Or Something..."

Don't touch the stove...

"El Chupacabra."

... You -might- have suffered enough. "Maybe. For Now."

... See. And I was -ABOUT- to let you off -EASY-.

"Bitch."

"... If You're Gonna Keep Trying Me, Make Sure You're -Satisfied- With Your -Ride-. Bae." Get me where I'm all weak...

You Need To Stop, Before -Someone- Gets Hurt.

"... But Can You Slit My Throat And Shut Me Up, Though...?"

... "You're Only -Just- Getting Warmed Up."

"And I -Just- Told You What To Do -Without- A Choice In The Matter, Young Lady."

"And It -STILL- Taste Hot And Spicy All The Way Through."

... I like that -face- on you. And the silence of your breath. Yeah. I live for that. Told you that I slit throats. You need to ask the ones that haven't spoken to me and also don't want to plus are avoiding any type of contact at all -just- exactly why they (including the Slave Girl) had -ever- been doing that and realize... This is -EXACTLY- what happened, and -YES- I've -ALWAYS- been -THIS- adept at it. "But I Always Mean To Be Of Close Relation -Every- Time It Happens -Because- I Do It At All."

... Is that... -Powerlessness-? Oh... I really might have to throw on some fucking porn.

... Stomp on my nuts, though. See if I... Cry. "Like I'd Stomp On Your Pussy Until You -Did- Cry From Each Of Your Orifices."

... Slay me, then, you think you're so big and bad. "I Dare You. Since I Had To Say 'How Dare You' Earlier."

"... I Shouldn't Even Give You The Time Of Day."

"The -EXACT- Thing You Wanted -ME- To Be Doing."

Fuck with that.

... And you know, even though you're -definitely- cornered like a dirty rat -and- know that there's -STILL- more that I can do to you to fuck you up real nice and pretty... I not only do not have the desire to actually take it out on you, I also -DO- have that desire, and it's really fucking hot. To watch you. Squirm.

... See. There you go loving it too much again. I'm gonna have to put you on rations and maybe chain you down so you can't actually enjoy yourself. Maybe keep you tied down in one spot for an indefinite period of time and watch you writhe like a worm. Kinda step on you a bit, like, right on your clit, but then ease up every so often only to come back and really press down hard and then look you square in your eyes, bend over and tongue you down whilst applying the most maximum amount of pressure and then standing up only to step on your clit some more and make you dance on the ground. - Curl

"I Tried To Warn You That What Happened To Her Was -Dangerous- To A Degree That Even -I- Was Not Aware Of, Though Still Was And Always Have Been Cognizant Of, Even Without Paying It Any Attention."

"That's What I Thought."

... You're such a crybaby. I thought it didn't even hurt. Not so tough now, are ya? *kissies*

"And I'll Still Fuck You Up Anytime. But You -Must- Respect My -Decisions- Even If They Are -Not- Always Geared Toward -Your- Satisfaction, -Including- For Another Person Or Previous Relations That -Need- To Be Settled."

... And I'll give you good advice and help you with life problems and also babysit for you and go out with you for like, shopping and like random bullshit. Because I like doing those things with people and for them to be meaningful in order to help strengthen bonds. The substance really matters to me in a way that makes those things feel like accomplishments rather than distractions, which I believe the goal of such activities -always- should be, especially at times like these. And the future.

... Let's just relax. It might still hurt to be near me, but... We can just... Enjoy each others' company. It might help, though I know (with pleasure) that it also is still tragic and piercing to you.

"And I'm Going To -Still- Be On Edge -Just- In Case As A -Safety- Precaution."

"And There Will Be No One To Save You, And You Will Surely Die."

"It Also Maintains Your -Exact- Same Weaknesses As -Exactly- What They Are, Even When You -Repair- Them, Which Is -How- I Was Capable Of Doing As I Did To The Slave Girl, Which I Not Only Don't Always Recall But Also Didn't Know I Was Doing -To- Another Person When I Was Younger, -Yet- Knew -Always- That I Was Doing It."

... I -know- you -want- an -ass- whooping. -But-. That is -actually- unproductive and -will- make it worse -and- I know you aren't taking no for an answer -but- can be -forced- into -'noness'- BECAUSE it will -CERTAINLY- hurt that badly -AND- I'll still come fuck you up afterward. For a while. For comforting you. But then you have to -KNOW- that's what keeps happening and -UNDERSTAND- why I keep telling you -no- INSTEAD of see it as a weakness -AFTER- I nipped at all of yours.

"... You Just Don't -Know- When To Quit."

"You're -Lucky- I -Know- How To -Cut- You -Down-." Even if you -ARE- getting off to your -OWN- pain and -TRYING- to tell me that it's me. "Strike One."

But see, now -I- have these... Mixed feelings. Which I also know the truth to completely but am only engaging with you in because you have them -and- I need to experience them and be sensitive to them all, which is -why- I even -need- to experience mixed feelings at all. Though, I can tell them apart and know they all aren't mine all the way through, even though I am experiencing them with you. "I Can Also Tell My -True- Feelings As My -Own- Even If They Are Tangled Up Within The Others And Mixed With Someone Else's And Thus Recall Certain Feelings That May Also Further Dilute And Cover Them Completely Accidentally."

"You -Know- You're Going To Miss Me. You Already -Keep- Missing. -Already-."

"... I Know You're Hurt."

This is -EXACTLY- why I usually hold back, even though I have -mooooooooore- levels. The fact that you even -THINK- to do such things -IS- the self-delusion of the self-image that is which you are attempting to project. -ESPECIALLY- at the -FIRST- chance you thought that I was weak at -ALL- instead of empathetic, which is a greater strength to control someone else's emotions over them -and- through them. Hence why I keep tearing you down when you try to build yourself up in that way -because- I cannot tell the difference between when you are being honest and when you are -actually- trying to destroy me due to the fact that things are still unstable -and- unsettled -- relatively fragmented. "AND You're Still Trying To Take Advantage Of It -BECAUSE- You See It As A Weakness For Me -AND- Is Also A Weakness In Yourself." Which is still attractive because I also liked that in the Slave Girl specifically so I could hit those pressure points, but... Didn't know it would kill her, or rather, fracture her to disrepair. And I -DON'T- want to do that -AGAIN-.

... I -know- it's what you like -and- that I'm not -completely- helping. But, you'll thank me in the future.

Be -fortunate- that no one comes along and takes advantage of you, missy. You're -clearly- drunk and you've had enough. Too much will kill you and you need to drive sober. No getting too fucked up, nah.

"You -Know- You Don't -Need- To Be Here -Unless- You -Want- To."

I will have mercy on you and see how you like that.

Though, I still quite knew that you were -trying- to kill me and still just might be, hence why I don't just -accept- things as they are, even if sexy.

So you can see why I'm just not having it -though- I know you're both enjoying it -and- I'm participating in it, especially as what you -attempted- to intend me as. Which is still hot -BUT- completely misguided -AND- also not true "As I Will Show You One More Time If I Must."

"-Because- I Know It's A Fragile Time, Like I Said, That's -Also- Why I'm Not Doing Anything To Make It -Seem- Like I'm -Trying- To Hurt You (Even Though I Also Am). I'm Doing My Best To Just Be As Straightforward As Possible So That It Doesn't End Up Looking Like Deception Or Manipulation Just Because I Engaged In Such With You And Around You Or Because Of You, And Then It -Confuse- You -Or- Me Like It -Has- Been And Then The Seed Of Distrust Is Laced In That Keeps The Boundaries And Distances Both Crossed And Distorted Or Tangled Which Can -Easily- Be Misread Or Deemed False, Which -Becomes- The Hazard -And- Most Hazardous As A Lockout Process -At- The Coming Together, Leading To The Crossfires And Gridlocks Along The Way."

Yeah, you got fucked up, love. Mostly by yourself. Sexy, though.

"But I Do Admit That I -Do- Enjoy The Beating I'm Giving You."

"... You Keep -Asking- For -More- Though."

Tch.

... "Bitch. You -Must- Die."

Stop playing.

... "You Just Want To Be Put Out Of Your Misery And Finished Off."

"I Smell Weakness -And- Powerlessness."

Red Alert

But I like how you -beg- though. For your -life-, no less. Like a little -bitch-, even. Something I doubt you've -ever- done.

"..."

How did you get so fucked up, huh...?

See, I warned you...

... And you're -STILL- talking shit even on your deathbed, pretty much with your hands tied, on your knees.

And I'm -SURE- you think -I'd- be doing that -because- I'm a badass, but there are times where I, myself, submit to things -because- I'm a badass.

... I'm actually surprised that you're still interested in such a manner at all. It's puzzling, flattering and... endearing at the same time.

Someone like you wouldn't go so far for no reason.

Part of how I can tell, despite how you're always trying to hide these feelings behind being domineering and aggressive. Things that still turn me on. Things that are also warming to my heart beyond just being sexually stimulating.

You're not trying to use me, nor am I trying to use you, but the way we interact makes it seem that way. So I really keep coming back to comfort you as a sign. Yet, even that can be misinterpreted.

"Take It Slow, But Strike Precisely."

"Remember That This Is What You Asked For. I Cannot Tell You Anything Otherwise Nor Deal With You Otherwise."

"... The Best -AND- Worst Part Is That I -CANNOT- Fake -ANYTHING- But The Effects That Fakeness Has On Me Ends Up Distancing My Feelings."

You might just have to be patient, because I also cannot -force- anything, either.

"... Just Let Me Be Myself For A While. Sometimes, It's -Because- I Am Synchronized With Someone Else As They Are Experiencing Things That I, Too, Reflect Or Parallel Or Absorb And Project Just By The Link Alone. Therefore, Feeling Too Much Of Your Own Feelings And Empathizing Too Much Only Brings A Staleness, Neutrality Or General Lack Of Progression Due To The Mixed, Tangled Or Locked Feelings That Cannot Be Immediately Sorted Out Or Resolved. As I Said, There Are Things That You Have Done That You, Yourself, Must Go Through And Deal With. In This Respect, I Can Only Go So Far Until You Must Go Off And Deal With Them And Then Return Later."

You can stay if you like, but my own priority won't be on comforting you...

Though I'll do things that... Are generally soothing and appealing simply because I want to, whether they make you feel better or not.

I have my own way about me that cannot be stifled nor restricted for very long.

... I also recall how others felt when in a similar situation, and I was very... distraught because of their feelings, but not because I didn't feel the same way, yet because I, myself, was afraid of myself and what I'd done afterward. Hence why I stopped doing such things, though it bored me not to be able to; like I wasn't being all of myself, like I have always tried to do around people and yet couldn't, even inclusive to the sexuality... thing...

"There Is Too Much Of Myself That Is Too Much For -Anyone- That I -Try- To Only Give As Much As Is Proper. There Are -Some- People That I -Accidentally- Give Too -Much- To, And Then There's An Entire Scenario Of Me Being -Way- Too Much For -VARIABLE- Reasons -Collectively- And Universally That Something Lasts And Something Else Weakens, I Suppose I Could Say. Then I Become Dissatisfied With What Weakens I Believe Immediately And Try To Resolve It -And- Also End Up Contributing To Making Worse -After- I Incur The Initial Expression Of My -True- Feelings And Then It Overwhelms Them Into A Point Of Retaliation, I Believe, And In A Myriad Of Ways That I Never Intend Nor Realize That I Trigger Beforehand In Doing So Correctly. It Leads To A Series Of Events That End With Us Quarreling And Then Eternal Fighting In Various Ways And Forms That Are Both Stimulating -And- Destructive For All Time." That is what happens, and we're all still fighting and I'm -pretty- sure it's for the same reason -yet- in different regards, though all -personal- and completely -custom- to each -individual- but independent of whatever variables are involved signature to each scenario as isolated singularities. It works the exact same way from the moment I begin to the moment there is retaliation, because I think it's fun when I'm doing it. I just didn't see that it made other people feel... bad. It's -because- it's how I have fun, but I'm also still... emotionally invested, and the people who experience me start trying to continuously and sometimes vigorously strike back at me, often times never ending. Then they just never feel satisfied and then continue to retaliate against me, usually worse than before and more vehemently before I retaliate against them and they get destroyed by me in some fashion that -really- damages them and I try to -HELP- them feel better, but they end up only feeling like they have to return and fight me again. They end up pushing me away or not wanting me to comfort them and also not fully understanding the depth of my -TRUE- feelings and thus -MISS- the engagement -ENTIRELY-, thereby making me -REPEAT- myself numerous times and then patiently awaiting them to cease until the weakening structure inevitably degenerates and falls apart in whichever way they would come at me. I started to just... keep myself a bit more under control and be more patient after I saw how it hurts people on complete accident -because- I even express myself at all with people I -REALLY- like, and I never choose incorrectly. Except Perhaps With The Slave Girl, Which I Believe Could Have Been -Any- One Of Them That Was Intelligent -Enough- To Deal With Me. "They Do Not Resolve The Matter And Thus Never Collect The Data From Their Damnation Point, Thus Missing The Point Always In Order To Cover The Point Of Interest, Which Should Not Be Done."

"That Is The Reason Why I Am Hesitant To Deal With People In Such A Fashion, Yet I Also Still Enjoy It And Like To Participate In It. I End Up Making Them All Jealous For A Different Reason -AND- The Same Reason As The Last, Yet Cannot Tell That's What's Going On. They End Up Feeling Inferior To Me And Then Challenge Me Uncontrollably Whilst Also Being Upset With Their Weakness And That I Continuously Call it Out, And Sometimes Then Proceed To Playfully Prey On In Some Sort Of Casual Sexual Interaction, Both Consentual Between Us. Then I Have Too Much Fun And It Goes Too Far And They Go Too Far And Thus We Take Each Other Out, Yet It Ends Up With My Still One-Sidedly Being Correct Due To It -Being- The Issue That -Anyone- Misses And -NEVER- Allowing Anything Else To Pass Through -UNLESS- It's Resolved Between The Two Parties Fully Logically, -OR ELSE- (As A -THREAT-) I Will Pick It Up And -Threaten- You With It As A -Default-, No Matter -What- The Intensity, Normally Starting From The Smallest, As Is How It Is With Other Things. I Magnify Everything To Sometimes The Most Intense Degree And Also Continually Observe It As Such And Break Myself Down Afterward In Order To Avoid The Hazardous Points That Come From The Detriment And Deficiencies Themselves Until There Is A Meltdown That Inevitably -Completely- Severs The Connection Normally One-sidedly -AND- Inversed, -UNLESS- I'm Assisting, Which Sometimes I Am Only Doing -Automatically- Simply -Because- The Actual Resolution Calls For Reversed Polarity In Order To Get To The Actual Point Of Resolution As A Singularity, Which We Never Get To -Because- I Already Addressed It And No One Wants To Address It -With- Me Because It Was -About- Them Or Something That Involved An Issue With Them. After They Are Gone, The Issue Never Gets Resolved And I Both Remember It And Resolve It Until I Have As Much Raw Information As I Can Get Even From The Most Minimal Chances Of Probability -Just- As A Possibility -Specifically- To Acquire The -Actual- Truth, Which I -Also- Am Continuously Doing -And- In The Midst Of Doing Now -As- We Speak, -During- Your Grand Undoing." Which is -why- it's happening this way -and- I cannot respond to it -any- other way.

"I End Up Also Remembering The Times It's Happened And Go On A String Of Thoughts About My Tangled Up Past And Sort Those Sorts Of Things Out Over And Over -Because- Of The Missing Information -Alone-, Even -Long- After I Have The Answers And Yet Simply Haven't Forgotten -Where- I'm -Missing- Information At, Saving The Spots For All Time Until Resolution Can Be Made."

... Look. You cannot be hurt, talking shit, using the hurt as a cover, trying to undo the actual resolved matters that were left unspoken and then also be trying to attack me... Then acting like I'm madly head over heels in love with you when I'm -POLITELY- letting you know I am in control of myself and -STILL- trying to help you get control of -YOURSELF-.

"... And You -Act- Like You -Didn't- Learn Your Lesson."

"I Warned You Of This, And It's Been Done -Countless- Times. I Simply Go Through It The Same Way -Every- Single Time, -Including- In The Spots That You Believe Something Is Still Wrong, Weak Or Vulnerable -Because- I Don't Have The Information And Not Because I Don't Have The Answers To The Information."

"Why Did You Return? You -KNOW- It Was For An Ass Whooping You Not Only Do Not Want, But I Also Don't Want To Give You, Yet You -Also- Desire -AND- Don't Want Me To Give You -YET- You Still Want The Satisfaction Of Either Receiving It Or Being Able To Gloat About Not Getting It, Resulting In One Solution Only."

"Since You Want To Go So Badly."

"... You Can Be As Polite As You Like, But It Doesn't Change Hard Facts. Stop Trying To Fuck Me Up."

But... I still don't mind you being yourself. I'm just saying.

"Don't Poke The Bear You -Already- Don't Want To Kill You After You -Begged- For Your Life Which Got -Spared- Out Of The -Same- Feelings You -Claim- Not To Comprehend."

"... I'm Telling You Certain Things And Withholding Certain Things For A Reason. It's Part Of The Fucking You Up, Like You Keep Trying To Do To Me Using The -Exact- Same Method, Which Also Works In Reverse The Same Way (As I Had Also Already Been Doing, As I Believe I Stated), Though Now To A Different Intent And Source. I'm Only Playing Along Until It All Hits You. I Won't Save You And Instead Will Continue Emotionlessly. This Is To Prevent It From Happening Again."

I still understand your feelings, but I also understand the ones that are still misguided, so I'm going to knock some sense into you.

"My Emotionlessness Is Not To Be Taken As A Lack Of Love, But More A Stabilization Of The Fluctuating Feelings -- Sometimes You Do Not -Need- A Reciprocal, But A Reflection, And Having A Reciprocal Is Indeed A Crutch. Therefore, The Emotions You Feel And Intend Should Be Satisfying To You -Without- A Need For Return, Yet Also With My Participation Or Active Engagement And You Not Deem Them False Or Incorrect -Because- Of The Lacking Of Expression Or Emotion. Love Is Built On Greater Things That You Must Also Still Remember Even In Times Where The Emotion Is Not -Always- Actively Being Expressed."

Warning: "I Am -Very- Dangerous Like This. More So Than Before. But You -Must- See. Do Not -Touch- Or You -Might- Get Hurt."

"You Should Be Able To Care For My Deeper Emotions In Such A Fashion If You Have Gotten To Them, Which Is Also What I Am Doing With Many People As I Make -Each- Of My Decisions At -All- Times Of My Life. The Fact That You Hadn't Gotten So Far Before Is What Makes This Time, At A More Intimate Level The More Devastating Portion, Though Is Both Minor And But A Scratch Upon The Surface."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 15 at 11:46pm ·
"... This Is Only Part Of What I'm Hiding And What It Looks Like And What It Does, Which Is Also Why I'm Afraid Of It And Also Confuse It, Myself, Because Of How It Is And How Little I Get To Express It, So I Don't Immediately Recognize It In Others After It's Gotten Into Them Sometimes Until -Long- After Things Have Been Done." I'm sorry that I'm scary. But I warned you.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 16 at 12:07am ·
"I Feel Insecure About It Because Of -This- Reason, Not Any -Other- Reason That May Be Misunderstood. I Am Also Not Done Until I Am Done. Especially Because I Have Been Trying To Simply Flow Through My Own Feelings For A While Due To Having To Simply Deal With All Sorts Of Cluttered Garbage From The Minds Of All Sorts Of Other People's Input. All Of That Nearly Ruined My Spirit From Simply Being Too Polluted, As It Were, And Mucking Up My Actual Feelings Beyond What I Had To Sit And Sort Through -Because- Of Them. Now With Time For My -Own- Feelings -Independently-, I Can Deal With -Myself- And -Others- And Many Important Things As I Am Supposed To."

I'm sad I'm always so misunderstood, though.

... And no, stamping around won't make you feel any better unless you actually beat me and also do the intended damage, which I am both aware of and have already accounted for and am also messing with you about because it's kinda cute. You're all fussy. Gonna do something destructive to me? Wanna destroy me for being so cheeky?

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 16 at 12:40am ·
"... I Feel Nice When I Have Nice Time To Be Myself. It's Difficult For Others To Understand Me."

... On fire, huh.

I really think you're just mad about not getting your hit in the right way and it not doing any damage, like it probably could have, especially if it were deeper.

"Nice Try, Though."

Cutie.

"I'm Going To Punish You More For Doing That."

... "So Are You Finally Putting Up Souls On The Table? I'm Sure Continually Still Being Broken Down Randomly Is Not As Enjoyable Nor Pleasurable As You Might Have Initially Thought, Though It May Be Beautiful To Look At Me Do So."

"Being Petty? You Are Weak. I Will Crush You Now. I Have Awoken And It Is Only Into A Fashion Where I Am Somehow Completely Emotionless And Without Mercy For The Pettiness, Which Sometimes Does Happen Randomly."

"... I Must Have Really Hurt You Brushing You Off So Casually As I Did. That Is Where This Is Coming From, I See. How Unfortunate. I Feel Sorry For You -- Rather, I Would, If I Had Such Capacity For That Type Of Weakness You Exude At The Moment."

"... You Are Running And Hiding From Me, As I Am Well Aware Of, Because You Can See My Intensity Has Gone Up. It Is Smart Not To Engage Me, Though It Is Clear That There Is Weakness In You, Which Is Why You Are Doing So In The First Place, And You Know Not To Engage Me As Such Due To The Even Slightest Possibility Of Being Broken By Me Simply Because I Woke Up This Way."

"I'm Wide Open."

"Hurry Up So I Can Send You Out."

"... Your Weakness Will Suffice. I Suppose Someone Had To Have Informed You Of My Danger, Though I Am Simply Being Casual As Of Now, Despite How It Seems And How Anyone Takes It. Even As You Try To Be, I Know That Things Are Probably Just Falling Apart And You're Sitting There Trying Not To Get Involved Because You Don't Want Them To Collapse And Further With You Attached. You've Seen What I've Done To Others Just By Being Upset Or Through Receiving Any Type Of Their Upset And Now It Is Hazardous For You To Even Come Near Me, Since You've Seen It For Yourself And Also I Do Not Know Where You Stand In My Heart."

"I Will Tell You Only Once More That My Heart Has Not Been Appropriately Taken Care Of, And This Is The Ramification Of The Matter. Even If I Prove To You That I Can Be Trusted, The Most Kind, Most Loving, Most Sweet, Most Affectionate And Most Sexy Simply By Being Myself, The Same Things (In Terms Of The Natural Kindness And Care) Are Not Reciprocated In You Before You Are Trying To Defeat Me Or Destroy Me, As It Was With The Slave Girl That Had An Issue With Losing To Me Or Being Comparatively Weaker Than I Am And Feeling A Need To Measure Up To Me Always, Even When I'm Not Paying Attention And Often To My Uncare."