Dream Log; Dream Of An Old Love

"Before The Previous Dream I Documented, I Had A Different, Shorter Dream Regarding Someone Whom I Was Deeply In Love With Until She Most Recently Started Treating Me Poorly For Reasons Still Unknown. I Still Love Her Deeply, But I Am No Longer In Love With Her Due To Her Behavior, As I Cannot Condone Such For No Good Reason And With No Explanation."

"Either Way, She Was With Me In My House, Which Looked Different. The Furniture Was Set Up Differently And It Was More Spacious, And Also Had A Different Layout Entirely. It Was Very Dark, And At Some Point, I Was Outside Briefly, I Believe To Go To A Store To Get Things For Us."

"She Hadn't Spoken For A Long While, And I Was Concerned As To Why, But She Was Lying Down On My Couch, And I Was Sitting Beside Her, Contemplating The Issue. It Reminded Me Of The Old Days When She Invited Me To Her House And I Lived With Her For A Time, Because Those Were Some Of My Most Cherished Days With Her, Though I Cherish All Times I Had With Her Out Of The Purity Of My Love For Her."

"She Seemed Distressed, Which Was Why She Was Mute To Me, But Also Seemed Like She Wished To Be Expressive To Me, Though Was Restrained Within From Doing So. I Could Not Understand Why, But I Comforted Her Anyway, Reassuring Her All The While That Things Would Be Okay And That She Could Speak To Me At Any Time. I Think The First Time She Interacted With Me That Entire Time Was When I Asked If She Wanted A Drink, And She Nodded, Or Assured Me In Some Other Way. I Do Recall Possibly Kissing Her On The Cheek Or Lips Briefly As A Token Of Affection. Beyond That, We Used To Drink Alcohol Together, So That May Have Been A Symbol For That, Though The Drinks I Got Were Non-Alcoholic, Because I Was Aware Of Her Issues Back Then And Didn't Want To Incur Them Again If She Hadn't Resolved Them. It Was A Red Juice, Possibly A Fruit Punch Or A Cranberry."

"Either Way, I Served Us The Drinks, But She Became Distressed Because Of A Strange Machine Resembling A VCR And Music Player And Mixer, One That I Not Only Never Owned, But Also Hadn't Ever Seen Before. She Pointed At It Profusely, Refusing To Speak. I Was Concerned, And I Asked Her If It Was Because She Feared Someone Was Watching Or Listening To Her, And At The Time I Didn't Realize That The Fact That It Was A Dual VHS And Music Mixer Meant Exactly What I Was Asking, Because I Simply Thought That The Machine Itself Was Bugged... But The Symbolism Is What Actually Made It What It Was. But After This, I Think I Woke Up."

"This Dream Concerns Me Because I Do Not Know Nor Understand Her Situation, And I Do Not Know If She Is In Trouble, Or If Someone Is Watching Her Or Monitoring Her, Which Is Why She Does Not Speak To Me, Or If It Is Because Of Something Personal Between Us. Either Way, I Felt It Good To Document This Dream, Despite How I Was Originally Going To Simply Ignore It. Perhaps I Should Be Patient With Her Instead Of Closing Myself Off Due To My Treatment, As I Initially Was Going To. It Seems Very Strange."