Tymon's Personal Breakdown

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... Let me be -perfectly- clear. I -speak- and -think- the -truth-. Even if that is sometimes something -nice- or -sentimental- about -someone- that not only -doesn't- deserve it but also bears no weight nor meaning to me at -all-. I simply have -righteous- thoughts. That also means when I am -calculating- or when I am -remembering- or even when I am -comparing-, whether consciously or unconsciously. Through psychoanalysis I may come to associative conclusions based on accurate information that I have recently calculated or discovered, but ultimately, that is -all- that it is -- it's not my own feeling nor is it my true will, it is -nothing- but -strict- and -straightforward- INFORMATION. -Recognition- of information, no less. If I have analyzed something about someone and it is associative to something I feel, I immediately compare it, whether I agree or feel anything about it or -not-. Such is "PSYCHOANALYSIS." It is -TOTALLY- independent of mine own -PERSONAL- thoughts and feelings, even if sometimes there are parallels or reflections. They are -other- people's thoughts and feelings that I am able to -cognitively- comprehend -SIMULTANEOUSLY- as my own, meaning I am comprehending more thoughts than just my own, which is a sign of my intelligence.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 17 at 1:37pm ·
"Me Being Myself Means That There Are -Personal- Things About Myself Going On -Within- Anything I'm Doing -Because- It Was All -From- Me In The First Place, Even If -Others- That Are -Outside- Of Me Get Involved." The people involved are, fortunately-unfortunately stuck in a mental lock that I've done which causes them to also attempt to try to do such to me and only backfiring, getting worse, trying again and continuously failing whilst I end up being cornered and isolated to a point where I call -all- the shots and also have drawn them to me -instead- of myself going to them, which only happened both on accident and -because- other things spiraled out of control. Yet, I, myself, have based -everything- around -myself-, and therefore, only -I- can do something about -certain- aspects -alone-. "Now There Are Things That They -Need- Me To Do -Because- Only -I- Can Do Those Things -And- In The -Most- Efficient And -Beneficial- Way." But, see, negotiations are in order -because- everyone has been doing deceptive things, and therefore I -ACTUALLY- have to -STOP- everything -AND- everyone in order to -ACTUALLY- do that -USING- the object, itself, and myself, as well, as the point of interest and of value. "Which I Was Indeed Waiting For."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 17 at 1:44pm ·
"There Are Things You -NEED- To Know About Me -AND- Have Sorted Out -PROPERLY- Before We Can Continue -BECAUSE- You Will Misunderstand Me Or Confuse Something Sensitive About Myself With Other People, Which Will Attach To Them (Especially If They Have The Chance To Create The Confusion) And Then Pervert The Image, Name, Word, Likeness, Power, Etc. Into Themselves And Not Realize I Simply Had Personal Similarities Or Likenesses Of My Own That Were Parallel To The Others Involved Whom I Actually Am Or Have Been Attracted To -Because- That's Just Information For -Myself- About -Myself- And Not Me Being Like Them Nor Them Being Like Me, Though There Is -Possibility- Of Such. I Also Recall Who Has Which By What I Personally Like And Always Personally Shared, Yet, It's Still Just Me, Myself, As A Person Being Who I Am In A -Single- Instance And Not -Entirely- As A -Whole- Person." So if you misread something sensitive, or I'm going through something private, it means that you don't get involved as a group or beyond the interpersonal relationships and their boundaries. You will only hurt -yourselves- and not -me-, even if I end up being vulnerable at a time simply to process the information.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 17 at 1:44pm ·
"There Are Things You -NEED- To Know About Me -AND- Have Sorted Out -PROPERLY- Before We Can Continue -BECAUSE- You Will Misunderstand Me Or Confuse Something Sensitive About Myself With Other People, Which Will Attach To Them (Especially If They Have The Chance To Create The Confusion) And Then Pervert The Image, Name, Word, Likeness, Power, Etc. Into Themselves And Not Realize I Simply Had Personal Similarities Or Likenesses Of My Own That Were Parallel To The Others Involved Whom I Actually Am Or Have Been Attracted To -Because- That's Just Information For -Myself- About -Myself- And Not Me Being Like Them Nor Them Being Like Me, Though There Is -Possibility- Of Such. I Also Recall Who Has Which By What I Personally Like And Always Personally Shared, Yet, It's Still Just Me, Myself, As A Person Being Who I Am In A -Single- Instance And Not -Entirely- As A -Whole- Person." So if you misread something sensitive, or I'm going through something private, it means that you don't get involved as a group or beyond the interpersonal relationships and their boundaries. You will only hurt -yourselves- and not -me-, even if I end up being vulnerable at a time simply to process the information.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 17 at 1:48pm ·
First thing's first, my... intrinsic value. Which is all personal and kept secret, but because of privacy and modesty, yet I relate to others in such matters and so I express them as such openly -with- the people who -share- these values with me, yet they are -PERVERTED- when people who -DON'T- get involved in it -BECAUSE- they want to (which is the perversion, often times).

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 17 at 2:00pm ·
... But I feel so -violated- by people even -trying- to dig so deeply and also missing the points of these matters that I don't like to release my most sensitive information because it actually has some real -personal- value that only people who are -personally- invested in me can appreciate or handle properly. Especially since it is also case sensitive and often encrypted. So. I have triggers and features, functions and sequences, algorithms and protocols built in at variable intensities based on several probability and possibility outcome codes which only align and lock up or unlock in a certain fashion, of which I both know and lock up -plus- back up lock up -and- forget about on purpose in order to prevent people from being able to unlock the data as long as I don't remember it -and- not be able to figure out the route -unless- I do it myself -whilst- jumping around to all the other points connected that are effected, yet don't cause a reaction until the first is done. "So I Do Not Allow Anyone To Know The Depth Nor Extent Of What I Have Done, Even If I Know It And Simply Don't Remember On Purpose And Then Become Too Involved In Lesser Portions That Require Me To Humble Myself To My Own Plans As Though I Do Not Know Them So That Others Not Only Cannot Know, But Also Cannot Get Such Information Out Of Me, Even If They Try Doing It Themselves And Also Have Me To Do Other Things That Are Not Related, But -Might- Be."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 17 at 2:07pm ·
"Now That I Have Made This Clear, I Will Continue Doing Just That In My Own Way. If You Do Not Know How We Got Here Nor How Everything Is Being Sustained,Then Don't Get In My Way. In General, Do Not Get In My Way. Suffer If You Must, For You Have Sinned. You Do Not Know How To Even -Begin- To Get Me Nor Yourselves Out Of It, Though I Can Do So In A Day. You Have Spent -Much- Time Nearly Begging Me (If Not So) And I Have Spent My Time -Knowing- I Can Do These Things On -Any- Day."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 17 at 2:14pm ·
"... You Have All Betrayed My Trust And Lost Your Faith -- Where Is Your God Now? It Should Have Been God Of The Covenant, That Made A Covenant With Me, Tymon, To Be He, Himself. So Bow Down To Me, Tymon."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 17 at 2:46pm ·
... Wow, everyone always trying to come at my manhood and Godhood that I don't know if I'm really as awesomely sexy perfect as I -know- I am. It's quite the dispute. Oh, I must just be so vain and hideously ugly. Well, that's what self-checks are for. Guess I'll just figure out for myself if I am indeed sexy tho, since I can't trust anyone else to do that for me. Everyone's lame and trying to hurl me down or cut me down or fight me for anything. I must be a horrible monster or something.

"I Have No Openings Except Ones I Make For Myself."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 17 at 5:21pm ·
"... It Becomes Terrifying As You Recall All The Moments That I Do It And It Links Up Perfectly With My Own Personal History Beyond What Anyone Has Known Or Recalled Because They Did Not Know Me When I Was Younger. I Was Afraid Of Everything. I Remember I Saw The Spirit Of This Little Girl When I Was Sitting By Myself (Whom I've Dubbed 'Tabitha') Sitting On Some Boxes In Front Of My Basement Of Which I Was Always Terrified Of Which Led To A String Of Events That Involved My Being -Utterly- Terrified Of My -Entire- House, Having -Horrendous- Nightmares Of It, -Blacking Out- And Being Afraid Of The Dark For A While, -Especially- When By Myself. This Was A Sense Of My Fear, Which Is My Pure Innocence Itself As A Little Girl. The Sediments Of All My Fears Amount To Many Terrors I've Had In My Entire Life Of Which I Have Mentally Overcome Without Losing Myself. My Sense Of Innocence (As Tabitha) Was -Genuinely- Afraid Of My Basement And Also I Used To Run Past It At Top Speed To Avoid Being Murdered By Serial Killers, And Believed That Every Scary Thing Would Come From It If I Stayed Too Close To It For Too Long, And I Remember Running Through My House To Escape My Fears. I Saw A Dream Once Of My Living Room With Blood All Over It And Something Terrifying Running Through And Coming To Greet Me, Which, By That Time, I Had Already Named It -Tabitha-, *Formerly Chroma."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 17 at 5:24pm ·
"... Do Not Ask About My Fear And My Innocence Connected As One Thing. That Is My Own Personal Childhood Memory And Experience That Is Also Shared With Those Who Experience Me On A Level Of Terror."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 17 at 6:14pm ·
Ominous: "... I Did Set This In Motion A -While- Ago. My Literal Fear Itself Has Struck The Land As Me, Myself. As It Is Written. I Am Simply Surprised, As I Am -Supposed- To Be Before My Innocence Returns Clean From Facing My Fears -As- What Makes Others And Myself -Fear- At All.."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 17 at 6:19pm ·
... "Spookums." It freaked me out, but it was still just me, and that's the -best- part. Instilling fear is a necessary commodity when learning how your own fear functions, and also -where- it has functioned whether you know it or not. "Mine Finally Withdrew From Possession Of Others. I Can -Feel- Those Things."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 20 at 6:37pm ·
"I'm The One Who Is Trying To Get This Family Together, And Yet Here I Am Having To Deal With Someone Not Trying To Have It Done Properly. Establishing It With Lies And Secrecy And Manipulation And Treachery. How Dare You Disgrace -God's- Kingdom Like That. Do You Think He Would Accept Such Rubbish, Or Would He Tell You It's Garbage For Even Trying To Establish It Like That?"

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 20 at 10:53pm ·
"I Use The Slave Girl To Control -You- All. That Is -Not- The Other Way Around -- The Issue Is That You All End Up Being -Controlled- By The Slave Girl Out Of Your -Own- Weakness, But I Still Both Control Her -And- You All Through Her."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 20 at 10:57pm ·
"Because I Have Not Been Comprehended And The Weakness Of Others Has Been Exposed To Me, And -ALL- Of Mine Have Been Both Covered And Resolved (Though In A Fashion Meant To Make Them Worse), There Is Nothing To Use Against Me -Except- That You All Try That Slave. It Will Prove Fruitless To You Now."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 20 at 11:07pm ·
"I Remember Why I Didn't Want Anything To Do With It, But I Also Didn't Know When I Was Younger. I Was Attached To The Morality Of Making A Relationship Work, But I Didn't Even Account For The Pure, -Sheer- Unbridled -BOREDOM- That Became Of It And Being Around Her. It Was -Unbearable- Boredom. Even Sex Became Boring. No Interest In Pleasing Her. Barely Any Interest In Pleasing Myself. Often Distracted. Lack Of Desire. Lack Of Concentration." It's like that now, too. I'm bored with the thought, whilst everyone else is probably still thinking about it. Like. No. I'm -seriously- even bored -thinking- about the interaction. Which is the saddest part about her and anyone who supports her, especially for that reason. "Says A Lot About You."

Tymon Trini-t Tensei
August 17 at 8:03pm
"I Don't Want Anything That Cannot Keep Itself From Sinning Even Able To -Touch- Me. Filthy Humans. How Dare They Even -Believe- It's Okay To Touch Me When I Am Doing Something Sensitive At All. I Am Tired Of Things Not Learning And Expending Way Too Much Time Trying To Keep Itself Alive So That I Cannot Move Forward -Because- They've Done Something And -Won't- Stop. I Will Do Something Destructive -BECAUSE- They Are Not Being Productive And Thus Are Being -DESTRUCTIVE- Immediately."

Tymon Trini-t Tensei
August 18 at 9:23am
"Something You Need To See, Experience And Understand So That You Know What It Looks Like And What I'm Like When I Get This Way -- I Have Been Hiding It My -ENTIRE- Life, Which Is -HOW- It Gets Confused."

Tymon Trini-t Tensei
August 19 at 7:23pm
"Trying To Corrupt My Innocence. Someone Dislikes That I Still Come Out Clean, As I Anticipated, Only Because They Keep Trying To Make That Not So. I Am Not Sinning On My Own, So It Ends Up With Others Trying To Force It And Myself Just Not Having Desire To Do So. It Is Also Showing Me Their Desires And Differences Of Style. I Don't Need To See The Sins Because They Do Them And I Don't Need To Act On Them Because They Do That For Me Trying To Get Me To Sin. It's A Lose-Lose That I Don't Even Need To Touch."

Tymon Trini-t Tensei
August 19 at 7:30pm
"... My Innocence Is Not Understood Because Very Few Allow It To Mature -And- Remember What It Is In Their Youth. Everyone Believes They Need To Destroy It, But That Is Only Because They All Destroyed Their Or Had Theirs Destroyed Somehow." Then they try to -fight- it not realizing that a -pure- one is a -Virtue-.

"... Do Not Touch My Innocence Before I Permit You Or Else You Are Trespassing."

Tymon Trini-t Tensei
August 19 at 7:53pm
"... -No One- Has -Ever- Seen Me Be My -Real- True Self By -Myself- Like I Have -Only- Been By -Myself-, And Also -Cannot Tell- What It Looks Like When I Express It -Openly- In The -Light-." I also don't feel -comfortable- doing that -either- BECAUSE of how -EVERYONE- treats it out in the Light.

Tymon Trini-t Tensei
August 19 at 7:56pm
"I Have -Always- Been -Isolated- And Relatively -Completely- Alone My -Entire- Life, Even From My -Own- Family And Have Had -Very- Few -Close- Personal Friends."

Tymon Trini-t Tensei
August 19 at 8:07pm
"I Actually Really Like A Lot Of Girly Things, Though It Balances Out With Hidden Masculine Qualities. These Are -Permanent- Qualities That I -Never- Grow Out Of Nor Tired Of -Because- They Are Part Of -My- Innocence, Whether It Applies To Others Or Not. I Often Present Them First To Be As Forward And Outright As Possible. But Others Often Ridicule Me For This So I Automatically Withdraw -That- Quality -Specifically- To The -Most Deepest- Part Of My Innards And Withhold It For As Long As I Distrust You, No Matter How Long That May Be. I've -Only- Ever Been That Way By -Myself- Or -Somewhat- In Order To Be -Sociable-, Because That Is Also A -Sociability- Factor." But no, I really seriously am just like that. So, when others don't like it, I have to be -MUCH- more reserved about it -BECAUSE- it's very personal, despite how forwardly I'd -prefer- to expose it. I normally only do that to people I truly love, but they -ALL- HATE it. "With -All-. Of Their -Hatred-."

Tymon Trini-t Tensei
August 19 at 8:11pm
"... I Am -Normally- Never Interrupted, Which Is How And Why I Was So Vibrant About Being So Within My Own Personal Space. Sometimes Comes Out Explosively Or Sporadically Because I Am A Very Spontaneous And Random Person By Nature, Which Is Only A Habit And A Necessary Part Of My Thoughts And Feelings In Order For My Biorhythms To Remain Syncopated."