Tymon's Personal Breakdown

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... Let me be -perfectly- clear. I -speak- and -think- the -truth-. Even if that is sometimes something -nice- or -sentimental- about -someone- that not only -doesn't- deserve it but also bears no weight nor meaning to me at -all-. I simply have -righteous- thoughts. That also means when I am -calculating- or when I am -remembering- or even when I am -comparing-, whether consciously or unconsciously. Through psychoanalysis I may come to associative conclusions based on accurate information that I have recently calculated or discovered, but ultimately, that is -all- that it is -- it's not my own feeling nor is it my true will, it is -nothing- but -strict- and -straightforward- INFORMATION. -Recognition- of information, no less. If I have analyzed something about someone and it is associative to something I feel, I immediately compare it, whether I agree or feel anything about it or -not-. Such is "PSYCHOANALYSIS." It is -TOTALLY- independent of mine own -PERSONAL- thoughts and feelings, even if sometimes there are parallels or reflections. They are -other- people's thoughts and feelings that I am able to -cognitively- comprehend -SIMULTANEOUSLY- as my own, meaning I am comprehending more thoughts than just my own, which is a sign of my intelligence.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 12 at 7:31am ·
... I'm gonna still do it anyway, which is the point of the lesson about -me- doing it to make sure something -else- isn't. "However, I Can Also Do So For -Myself- And That Simply Be So Without Falling Prey To Its Influence, Unlike Many Who Encounter Me, One Of Which Has Already... Expired."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 12 at 9:03am ·
"I Remember When Everyone Is Exposed To My Venom Eventually. I Remember The Days When I Do It And When It Simply Leads Back Into Itself Perpetually." They all then return to me with a different state of mentality and I can tell each altered state of mind apart from when I influenced it and before I did compared to the effects afterward. Most of them just become Paradoxes and transvert itself out. - Blot

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 12 at 9:15am ·
... "What Makes Everyone Interested In Me -Is- This -Because- Of What I, -Myself- Am Capable Of Doing It At All And Also -Enjoy- Doing So." Hence, my modesty. It makes me wonder about my actual value, which I do take an interest deeply in, considering who I am as a person and also how others I am interested in take value in certain interests of mine. My own value as an object is still only determined by myself at all. Though... "I Still Know The -Full- Extent Of My -Actual- Potency, Though Never Actually -Using- It -Except- When I, -Myself-, Get Stimulated To Do So." Which, of course, I am -ever- in -total- potent control over. As I hope is visible, finally, at least... For the moment.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 12 at 1:40pm ·
... Hmhmhmhm... Well, I'm glad you're humble. I do enjoy these sorts of chats and... It shows me some maturity that is certainly necessary. Trust me... Many were just so immature, the exposure stunted them and I was not aware of it. It pains me to reflect on them sometimes, especially one. Yet, I still know I was only looking at weaknesses, though it turned out that they turned against me like this. It is something I needed to see in you before I even deemed you ready for anything... My fear, see... I fear that I will accidentally or inadvertently do it again to someone and it end up with a similar result as before, for many act on the same weakness. That is also why I cannot simply just... give my secrets away. I must be responsible, especially to someone that shows promise. I'm already ashamed of how many I've damaged thus far alone, so forgive me for being a little... overly cautious.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 12 at 1:55pm ·
"You Have Enough Power To Control, Yet Not Enough Control Over The Power. This, Too, Was Mine Own Affliction, For A Time. Now, I Undershoot Everything. That Is Nothing But Practice. If Your Own Power Is Limiting You Thus, Then All It Means Is That You're Ready To Grow Yet Simply Stunted Where You Are Because Of The Method. You Continue To Hurt People Because You Are Too Great For Them, Yet They Are Not Enough For You. You Need Greater Stimulation, And Sometimes That Comes Strictly From The Self. Until There Is A Level Of Control That Is Capable Of Keeping Yourself Satisfied And Also Not Damaging To Others, Yet Also Not Causing You To Feel Restrained Or Hampered In Your Own Existence, Which Causes You To Act Out In Such A Fashion And Damage Those That Are Weaker. You Need To Be Around Stronger People."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 12 at 3:06pm ·
... Hmhmhmhm... I'd be blushing if I could. You're a charmer, yourself. Though, when you're using my image, that's also its own thing. Still... "I See Something In You. I Know What You Want Me To Look At; It's What I've Always Seen In Others, Yet They Often Lose For Themselves After Being Exposed To Me. That Is Why I Fear Myself And What Is Done To Others." I see your fear... Yet also courage. I admire that... Something respectable. Therefore, I acknowledge you and your spirit.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 12 at 3:31pm ·
"I Am Also Being Cognizant Of The Impotent Ones That Move Based On Their Upset At Even Bearing Witness And Also Not Bearing My Same Potency. As Great An Irritation As It Is For Them To Be Around Me, This, Too, Is Something That You Should Understand About Why You Never Are Able To Express Yourself. Much Like Me, You Need To Be Away From Those Who Limit You." That's why... I know what must be done. Especially since you feel so... Adamantly. You actually have a resolve, which I can see tangibly in your motives.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 12 at 4:07pm ·
... You're holding back and waiting for me. Yet, I'm already doing exactly what I intended to be. There are levels to this that also come from the point where I begin and gradually build up all the way to the end. Right now, I just -feel- you... Deeply, in fact. I suppose you have a way about you... Then again, I did make a formal request -and- also leave myself completely receptive independently... I just wanted to get a taste of you and your feelings, first. Get a good feel for you... a nice snug fit. Get it?

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 12 at 7:09pm ·
... I teach lots of lessons along the way as we go on the fly, as I always have done.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 13 at 6:11am ·
... I get it now. You all fear me getting too powerful, and now you've sent someone to try to make sure I don't believe myself to be too powerful, as well, like you all are not very powerful. Well, the joke's on you. I don't actually take heed from you all anymore since that's all you ever do and it's all out of inferiority, alone. Instead...

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 13 at 12:41pm ·
"... I'm Actually Very Deeply Hurt About All Of These Things That You've Done, Mandy." Like, legit. Oh, and -ALL- of the -DISRESPECT- running (with Slave Feet) around here is... Less than hospitable. "How Dare You." But. See. "I Have Understood Your Feelings Every Time You Appeared To Me And Made A -Clear- (Or Relatively So) Distinction Between Yourself And The Others (Especially The Whore), Or, At Least To -You-." I also did not need your damn fake vanity. But I still understand that you were definitely going hard and trying to fight me. Still. You got fucked up just like ole girl. "What You Have Seen Is Dangerous To Other People And Also Yourself. This Is Also Why -I- Have Been Collecting Data On It -And- Myself In Comparison. This Is Also -Why- I Am Afraid Of It." However...

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 13 at 3:51pm ·
"Okay, Let's -Discuss- Some Things More -Personally- Now. Seems Like The Playing Field Is Level And Things Are Neutral Among Us. It's The Perfect Time To Lay Some Things Down More Deeply. I -Cannot- Go Further In Depth Than A -Certain- Perimeter -Unless- I Have Dealt With The -Surface- Issues That Have Built Up To It -And- Detract From It Being Deep At All. Certain Things Are Only Done Within The Perimeter Of The Boundaries Of A Relationship (Ergo, 'Respecting The Bedroom') And Are Never To Be Brought Outside Of Them -Because- It Is A Perversion To Do So -And- To Prolong It -And- Makes More When Attaching Things To It. It Means That -You- Have A Weakness Which Is -Tied- To The Relationship Issue What Only Ends Up Being The -Exact- Thing That Makes You Look Even Worse When It's Brought Back To Your Face, Even -If- You've Distorted It And Gotten A Lot Of Others To Help Keep It That Way." That said... There's a level of 'What Goes On Between Us Stays Between Us' and 'That Applies Universally To -Personal- Relationships -Because- Of The -Personal- Values That -Cannot- Be Calculated -Nor- Translated -Beyond- That, And No Measure Should Be -Attempted- To Be -Given- About It Rather Than What's Been Going On -Because- Of Or -Around- It, Else You -Miss- The -Actual- Opportunity To Resolve It -Because- You Are Not Looking At A Vulnerability That Is The -Cause- Of It All Nor The Vulnerable Person For Their -Actual- Value, Good Or Bad. Sometimes The Vulnerable Person Has Made Themselves That Way Based On Insecurity And Have A Desire To Make -Another- Feel That Way To The Point Of Being -Very- Reckless About The Matter And To Assist Them Is Actually -Sinning- Completely, Even If You -Believe- You Are Doing A Service. The Weak One Isn't Always The Innocent One."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 13 at 9:28pm ·
Confession: ... I know why things -seem- the way they do, -and- you also caught me at a time where I, myself am simply trying to be casually pleasant, yet the mixed feelings and the intentions behind each of them are actually -very- convoluted. Still, I recognize each of them for what they are, despite how they are all -largely- expansive and yet also quite related. That's both not good and also destructive. Also makes boundaries. I'm also still enjoying myself. Heeheehee. I'm not laughing at you. I -would- be, though. -Especially- because you keep trying to do stuff that's hazardous to me or malicious or something. Something or other. I'm -TRYING- to help ease the tragedy, and yet... Somehow, I feel like I'm making it worse -even- when being -completely- upfront about my -real- personal feelings -all- the way from the -beginning-.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 13 at 9:35pm ·
... I'm doing everything I can for you. This is all that's possible if you're going to be that way -and- not have the full extent of my trust and faith in you to -not- be deceptive. So, that ends up with me also searching for where one would seek to be such and then relatively play along up until a point of intended capture, hence the disarming of traps and coming out unscathed plus also snatching the person that set it up. "Nice Try, Though. You're A Piece Of Work, Even Head To Head."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 13 at 9:45pm ·
... I'm not saying that there isn't still hope. I'm just saying that certain -other- things have to be in order -first- before the -next- set of things can even become... tangible even as a conception. Even though I know that was done on purpose as were -each- of the -cleverly- intended things that have gotten in my way to the degree of -nearly- coming to a screeching halt -and- with intent to -viciously- fuck up my -entire- mentality but also my emotions, heart and leave me looking shitty and fucked up in the end, I -still- understand the -deeper- influences that inspire all such things -AND- that they are -ALL- wrong even -IF- you wanted to hurt me -REALLY- badly -AND- wanted to -WIN- really badly enough to make me feel that way -EVEN IF- I have done the same. The point is to work them out with me -instead- of fighting with me -and- trying to damage me at all. "Which Was The -Exact- Same Issue As With The Slave Girl In The First Place With Me, As Well, Quite Literally Honestly." I'm a lot to deal with -CORRECTLY-, as -EVERYONE- has seen and this happens most frequently -because- of this -specific- occurrence over many of the others.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 13 at 10:20pm ·
... I'm definitely both sympathizing and empathizing. I'm not trying to like... Disrespect your feelings or anything. That was -never- the point nor the intention, but that ends up being an end result on accident because of the scenario and the situation. It's pretty much completely systematically like that, and I'm just being mannerable in respect to whatever you're feeling in conjunction with mine own. So don't take my courtesy as pity or anything. I not only don't do that (unless I'm -really- upset) but I also -REALLY- try to appeal to the feelings of others who may be hurt by me for -any- of the reasons why I -know- it happens and -how- it does... Though, honestly, we -ALL- know this was -YOUR- doing. And if not then, then now. So you pay the price for it and these feelings are the price, as well as the inability to accept comfort for them, whether you desire it or not.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 13 at 10:36pm ·
"... As Much As You Hate To Admit It, You Like How I'm Not Only No Bitch, But I've Got The Balls To Stand Up To You -And- Also Still Kept Them After -All- The Attempts To Eviscerate Me." Don'tcha...? >;9

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 13 at 11:16pm ·
"... I'm Just Going To Enjoy Myself And My Peace. We'll See Where Things Go From Here And I'll Merely Keep To My Own, As I Have Been." Feel free to partake of such with me if you delight. My heart is still extended, and you seem to be a bit more... careful about making such -reckless- attempts at damaging it. "Though You Keep Trying To Be A Bitch About It." See if it makes you feel better. It actually -might-. Though it may be worse when you leave, I will tell you that as a -safety- precaution.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 13 at 11:25pm ·
... Why did you think I was a little bitch, though? Was it because of the being nice, yet also sometimes accidentally condescending?

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 14 at 1:26am ·
... I know. It's tragic. Especially the part where I not only know, but I also tell you it not only gets worse, and I also want to just comfort you through the process -because- I also share said feelings for you -but- know that you have sinned so greatly and many other factors come into play regarding the full gravity of the situation that don't allow me to do so for certain things and for certain reasons -unless- I see that you're coherent enough to have the talk with me. Plus that I'm not only still enjoying our time together, you as a person, destroying you and whatever you're doing, -and- also know that -all- such things were originally felt and intended from the host, but also delighting in -certain- aspects that I couldn't particularly enjoy whilst being so wrapped up in such craftiness as which I have experienced, though eluded.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 14 at 12:20pm ·
... I'll finish fucking with you later. I'm enjoying this luxury, yet... I not only have things to do, but also... There's a lot of mixed feelings involved that truly prevent me from -actually- enabling certain sensitive spots with you, and also knowing that they can instill horrible -wrath- from you just being exposed to me doing anything at all after relatively around this point. "But I -Am- Still Playing With You In A Friendly Manner Even Though I Also Seriously Mean -Each- Of My Sentiments."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 14 at 1:06pm ·
"... Something About The Distrust... Prevents Me From Ceasing." Even if I -KNOW- it is hurting you. And something -different- is pleasuring me -about- the momentum -entirely- that -prevents- it from being dependent on -your- feelings as a -singularity- and an -isolation- as a target point.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 14 at 1:12pm ·
"... I Must -Seriously- Contemplate Whether I Will Continue To Malice You Further For Fun. That Is A -Very- Deep Reflection, Though I Already Have My Two Absolute Possibilities Secure For Myself."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 14 at 1:30pm ·
... What -REALLY- makes me mad, though, is that you -SERIOUSLY- thought I was a fucking pussy. "Seriously. Icing On The Cake."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 14 at 1:53pm ·
... Tasty. "-ESPECIALLY- Because You -THOUGHT- I Was A Little -BITCH- Like -YOU-." And even better when I return to being just as modest, or even more so, only to your great infuriation.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 14 at 2:10pm ·
... It must be very hard for you knowing that I not only live up to expectation even after critical analysis of the flaws, vulnerabilities and weak points about me, but also that there is not only no damaging me and there's still more -plus- you -DEFINITELY- didn't even -CONSIDER- that it would even -GET- this far, let alone this fucking hot and spicy. "El Chupacabra."