Tymon's Personal Breakdown

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... Let me be -perfectly- clear. I -speak- and -think- the -truth-. Even if that is sometimes something -nice- or -sentimental- about -someone- that not only -doesn't- deserve it but also bears no weight nor meaning to me at -all-. I simply have -righteous- thoughts. That also means when I am -calculating- or when I am -remembering- or even when I am -comparing-, whether consciously or unconsciously. Through psychoanalysis I may come to associative conclusions based on accurate information that I have recently calculated or discovered, but ultimately, that is -all- that it is -- it's not my own feeling nor is it my true will, it is -nothing- but -strict- and -straightforward- INFORMATION. -Recognition- of information, no less. If I have analyzed something about someone and it is associative to something I feel, I immediately compare it, whether I agree or feel anything about it or -not-. Such is "PSYCHOANALYSIS." It is -TOTALLY- independent of mine own -PERSONAL- thoughts and feelings, even if sometimes there are parallels or reflections. They are -other- people's thoughts and feelings that I am able to -cognitively- comprehend -SIMULTANEOUSLY- as my own, meaning I am comprehending more thoughts than just my own, which is a sign of my intelligence.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 14 at 2:10pm ·
... It must be very hard for you knowing that I not only live up to expectation even after critical analysis of the flaws, vulnerabilities and weak points about me, but also that there is not only no damaging me and there's still more -plus- you -DEFINITELY- didn't even -CONSIDER- that it would even -GET- this far, let alone this fucking hot and spicy. "El Chupacabra."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 14 at 2:39pm ·
... I like that -face- on you. And the silence of your breath. Yeah. I live for that. Told you that I slit throats. You need to ask the ones that haven't spoken to me and also don't want to plus are avoiding any type of contact at all -just- exactly why they (including the Slave Girl) had -ever- been doing that and realize... This is -EXACTLY- what happened, and -YES- I've -ALWAYS- been -THIS- adept at it. "But I Always Mean To Be Of Close Relation -Every- Time It Happens -Because- I Do It At All."

... And you can come over my house and watch TV and movies and eat ice cream and talk about silly bitches on TV and whatever foolishness happens in your life and your life story, background history, future goals, ambitions and general personal desires as friends and bae. Let off some steam, strengthen yourself and our bond up again, atone for the past... You know. Chill shit. "As Long As You Don't Deserve To -Die- Like The Slave Girl, -Especially- Not By Attaching Yourself To Such Aforementioned Pieces Of Sin."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 15 at 4:01pm ·
... Now that I'm thinking more about myself in relation to these relations and not about you, I also realize that I do not know if you feel the way you do, either. Both at a stump that's based on our own handiwork with each other. But, if it got tangled up like this, then sorting it out will answer all these questions and settle them permanently as we go. I believe that is the first step to the solution.

"My Emotionlessness Is Not To Be Taken As A Lack Of Love, But More A Stabilization Of The Fluctuating Feelings -- Sometimes You Do Not -Need- A Reciprocal, But A Reflection, And Having A Reciprocal Is Indeed A Crutch. Therefore, The Emotions You Feel And Intend Should Be Satisfying To You -Without- A Need For Return, Yet Also With My Participation Or Active Engagement And You Not Deem Them False Or Incorrect -Because- Of The Lacking Of Expression Or Emotion. Love Is Built On Greater Things That You Must Also Still Remember Even In Times Where The Emotion Is Not -Always- Actively Being Expressed."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 15 at 9:04pm ·
"... I Don't Know If You Can Handle It. After This Moment, I'm Not Supposed To Care Whether You Can Or Cannot. I Will Still Express Love As I Am Supposed To And As I Desire, Regardless Of The Damage That It May Do, Which Is Supposed To Only Be Regarded As A Last Resort In This Sort Of Scenario. That Makes It Hurt The Most, And I Also Do Not Cease. I Also Do Not Feel It If It Hurts You, Good Or Bad, As Is When I Am Breaking People."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 15 at 9:13pm ·
"I Do Not Stop Once I Begin. I Also Already Am Aware Of Your Standpoint, Though You Are Only Being Yourself. It Is Up To You To Remain Or Decide To Shift Whilst I Am Going Through This Process. I Have Already Decided On Everything Independently. Make Your Judgments Along The Way. Do Your Best Not To Get Crushed, Though I Am Indeed Going To Automatically Crush You, And It Will Hurt. This Is To Reveal To You The -True- Extent Of The -Fear- Of God, Mostly Because No One Respects Nor Understands The Fullness Of It Due To Never Receiving All Of It And My Own Relenting Because Of Love Or Mercy. That Is No Longer So Because Of The Circumstances And What Is Also Presented As Evidence Before Me."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 15 at 9:15pm ·
Warning: "I Am -Very- Dangerous Like This. More So Than Before. But You -Must- See. Do Not -Touch- Or You -Might- Get Hurt."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 15 at 9:20pm ·
"I Also React According To The Information I Am Still Resolving Along The Way Appropriately, Even To The Point Of Retaliation To Any Extremity As A Safety Precaution, Even If I Do Not Need A Safety Precaution And Do Not Feel Threatened. I Need No Threats In Order To Establish Such Simply To Secure My Own Perimeter From Anything And Everything. I Will Crush Down Everything From There."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 15 at 10:11pm ·
"That Makes Me Upset Because You Don't Understand My Feelings When I'm Actually Feeling Them Nor That They Are Interconnected In A Fashion That Sometimes Does Not Express Them The Standard Fashion Of A Social Mold Which Is Commonly Understood. They Are Also Layered To A Degree Of Expression That Is Both Straight Forward And Also Partially Distant. Therefore, They Will Accumulate And I'll Go Do Something With Them, Even If It Means Expressing Them In The Fashion That Is Possibly Highly Reactive And Unstable, Which Also Involves Sexually Or With Malice." Just because that's what actually happens when I'm -actually- upset, as opposed to -WHATEVER- you -EVER- thought was me being -upset-. All of that was -literally- never being upset, but this time was -actually- me being upset -because- of what you -just- did about -misunderstanding- me and my partially being offended.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 15 at 10:22pm ·
"... You Also Continuously Misunderstand My Intentions, Even Though I Also See You Are Receptive To Many Of Them, Though Not My More Intricate Quirks."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 15 at 10:43pm ·
But, I'm not only not hurt, I'm also not very upset, even though I'm highly upset about the fact that you keep on doing such on purpose, though it fails when you do it on purpose, and then it all simply being addressed on accident as the accident happens and draws up and in all of the accumulated intention to do me harm or malice in any way and then pins it in the one spot where all of them come together as your own intention to do me harm being hurtful out of a mistake in doing me bogus and then I simply lump them all together as the only successful occurrence still amassing the same level of comprehension altogether in the single instance of misunderstanding something based on a deeper connection which was required to understand those sorts of feelings which were not understood prior and it still end up hurting you through my being hurt -instead- of me being hurt and it either please you or not be connected to you in some fashion -and- also still somehow hurt you -instead- of hurt me, even though I recognize the pain being able to be recognized and replicate for myself whatever I have picked up about you in order to experience it as well and then translate it back to you as what you either are feeling, should be feeling, how it makes me feel or how it would make me feel rather than feeling it, and then remain in that state until whatever has been done is resolved between us.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 15 at 10:57pm ·
"You Should Be Able To Care For My Deeper Emotions In Such A Fashion If You Have Gotten To Them, Which Is Also What I Am Doing With Many People As I Make -Each- Of My Decisions At -All- Times Of My Life. The Fact That You Hadn't Gotten So Far Before Is What Makes This Time, At A More Intimate Level The More Devastating Portion, Though Is Both Minor And But A Scratch Upon The Surface." Yet, none of the previous travesties and treacherickeries done before are exempt nor overlooked, though they literally did no harm, yet are brought up -now- as the very things that contribute to my scratch's severe severity.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 15 at 11:34pm ·
"Oh. You Are Still Here. Trying To Learn From Me. Understand Me. This Is Cute. I Enjoy People Who Actually Also Like This. However, My Emotions Are Much More Complex As Is My Mentality, So Dealing With Me Is Strenuous At Times And My Feelings -Seem- Not To Make Sense -Because- I Not Only Feel Damage To Them -Less- But Also Because I Can Stimulate Them -Myself- A Lot More Powerfully All On My Own Just Being Myself That Others Cannot, And If I Do, They Cannot Handle It." Which is -why- I said what I said earlier, as this all wraps up into.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 15 at 11:46pm ·
"... This Is Only Part Of What I'm Hiding And What It Looks Like And What It Does, Which Is Also Why I'm Afraid Of It And Also Confuse It, Myself, Because Of How It Is And How Little I Get To Express It, So I Don't Immediately Recognize It In Others After It's Gotten Into Them Sometimes Until -Long- After Things Have Been Done." I'm sorry that I'm scary. But I warned you.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 16 at 12:07am ·
"I Feel Insecure About It Because Of -This- Reason, Not Any -Other- Reason That May Be Misunderstood. I Am Also Not Done Until I Am Done. Especially Because I Have Been Trying To Simply Flow Through My Own Feelings For A While Due To Having To Simply Deal With All Sorts Of Cluttered Garbage From The Minds Of All Sorts Of Other People's Input. All Of That Nearly Ruined My Spirit From Simply Being Too Polluted, As It Were, And Mucking Up My Actual Feelings Beyond What I Had To Sit And Sort Through -Because- Of Them. Now With Time For My -Own- Feelings -Independently-, I Can Deal With -Myself- And -Others- And Many Important Things As I Am Supposed To." Too much trash heaped up one on top of the other, so it was like a blood clot to me, though it wasn't more than just congestion, really. Boresome, dense. Really getting in the way of my natural process and backing me up. "I'm Feeling More Clarity Now With Very Little Having Been Diluted, But The Things I Was More Or Less Already More Deeply Aware Of Being Still As They Were." It was... annoying, but it was still clarifying for me, though I had been clear on such things more or less as I was without the incessant obnoxious interference.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 16 at 12:07am ·
"I Feel Insecure About It Because Of -This- Reason, Not Any -Other- Reason That May Be Misunderstood. I Am Also Not Done Until I Am Done. Especially Because I Have Been Trying To Simply Flow Through My Own Feelings For A While Due To Having To Simply Deal With All Sorts Of Cluttered Garbage From The Minds Of All Sorts Of Other People's Input. All Of That Nearly Ruined My Spirit From Simply Being Too Polluted, As It Were, And Mucking Up My Actual Feelings Beyond What I Had To Sit And Sort Through -Because- Of Them. Now With Time For My -Own- Feelings -Independently-, I Can Deal With -Myself- And -Others- And Many Important Things As I Am Supposed To." Too much trash heaped up one on top of the other, so it was like a blood clot to me, though it wasn't more than just congestion, really. Boresome, dense. Really getting in the way of my natural process and backing me up. "I'm Feeling More Clarity Now With Very Little Having Been Diluted, But The Things I Was More Or Less Already More Deeply Aware Of Being Still As They Were." It was... annoying, but it was still clarifying for me, though I had been clear on such things more or less as I was without the incessant obnoxious interference.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 16 at 12:40am ·
"... I Feel Nice When I Have Nice Time To Be Myself. It's Difficult For Others To Understand Me."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 16 at 12:40am ·
"... I Feel Nice When I Have Nice Time To Be Myself. It's Difficult For Others To Understand Me."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 16 at 6:14am ·
"I Will Tell You Only Once More That My Heart Has Not Been Appropriately Taken Care Of, And This Is The Ramification Of The Matter. Even If I Prove To You That I Can Be Trusted, The Most Kind, Most Loving, Most Sweet, Most Affectionate And Most Sexy Simply By Being Myself, The Same Things (In Terms Of The Natural Kindness And Care) Are Not Reciprocated In You Before You Are Trying To Defeat Me Or Destroy Me, As It Was With The Slave Girl That Had An Issue With Losing To Me Or Being Comparatively Weaker Than I Am And Feeling A Need To Measure Up To Me Always, Even When I'm Not Paying Attention And Often To My Uncare."

"At Least You -Seriously- Understand Why I'm Too Hot To Touch And Why There Are More Things That Go Into This Than Just What You Planned Or Thought About, Plus Things That Are Still Being Kept Restrained Or Withheld Specifically Because Of Those Things, Even When Everyone Else Would Believe That It Is A Time To Be Better, Even If Everything Is Falling Apart On The Other End And Everyone Is Desperately Seeking Me Out In Some Hopes That I Will Come And Save It And You All Instead Of Letting Everyone Die Because No One Can Be Trusted And Measuring The Depth Of Your Hearts To See How You Deal With Me And Are Able To Be Dealt With Only To Find You All Still Lacking Due To The Events That Came Prior Not Being Atoned For And No One Understanding Exactly -WHY- You Need To Atone For Them, Thus Making Everyone Upset When They Near Me And There Is An Impassible Barrier Between Each Of Us That I Am Still Expressive About In My Own Openness And Freedom That Seems Like Sexual Expression And Yet Is Merely My Own Freedom Mingling With The Degrees Of Freedom Of Others And Then Being Restricted By The Restrictions Of Those Who Come To Me And Don't Realize What They Have Done Nor The Actual Damage They Have Caused Not To Me, But To The Actual Bonds That -WOULD- Have Made Me More Lenient And Comforting Or Loving In Such A Fashion, Yet Cannot Due To The -Exact- Same Conditions That Brought Us All Here To This Terrible Collapse -Not- Of Myself, But Of My -Supposedly- More Powerful Adversaries Whom Are Doing Nothing But Bluffing And Clinging To A Thread That I Can Also Cut At Any Given Time -And- Also Already Knew So, And Will Do At Any Moment -Specifically- To Teach You -All- A Lesson About Doing Things -Properly- And Taking Care Of -Me- Instead Of Trying To Lord My -Own- Things, Of Which You Owe Your Very Lives, Over Me And Try To Praise Someone That Also Not Only Cannot Live Without Me Nor Them, But Is Causing You All To Even Suffer This Fate By Being Alive And For Having Sought It Out Incorrectly In The First Place To The Point Where All The Idiocy Involved Actually Only Amounts To Said Person And Distrust All Laced Around Said Person To End Up Being Only A Detriment And Nothing Like Whatever Type Of Praise You Were Trying To Embellish About For The Sake Of Pride And Vanity, Which Thereby Leads You Into The State Where -Anyone- That Participated With The Same Actions You -Thought- You Revered Only Ends With You Being At -My- Mercy And Not Actually At An Advantage At All As You Believed When Someone Sinned Against Me In A Fashion You Deemed It Fit To Exalt And Join In Following After, Even Though It Really Just Ends With Your Own Lives Being In My Hands And Not The Other Way Around, Much To Everyone's Dismay About The Person Who Even Tried And Failed Though Others Try To Still Use The Fact That It Happened At All As Leverage Instead Of The -Actual- Information That Is What -Caused- Everyone To Get To This Point Of Dismay And Decay." So I think you'd all better review who are the sinners and why I'm treating sinners in a way that none of them can reciprocate and also cannot match, even when I sit here and go through it with you.

"The Truth About 'Tabitha' Is That It Is A Younger Version Of Myself As A Child And My Childhood Innocence, It Is Not The Personification Of Anyone Else Nor Has It Ever Been. It Has -Always- Simply Been -Myself- And My -Childhood Innocence-. This Is So Because When I Was Younger I Used To Be So Afraid Of My Basement That I Ran Through My House At Top Speed To Avoid It. There Was Once Where I Saw A Ghost-Like Little Girl That Was Sitting In Front Of It, And Eventually I Realized It Was The Projection Of My Fear Of The Basement. I Am A Powerful Psychic And I Can Project My Own Spirit Whilst I Am Still Conscious. I Had A Dream Also Of A Girl That Ran Through My Living Room Whilst It Was Splattered With Blood And I Was Severely Terrified. This Is The Personification Of My Fear And The Innocence Of My Fear, Itself, Which Is Named 'Tabitha' Because I Was Like A Little Girl. This Is Also Factual Because I Love Cute Girly Things Such As Plush Toys, Girly TV Shows, Talking To Girls About Girly Things, Happy Cute Music, Dancing, And Have An Effeminate Personality."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 16 at 6:56am ·
"It Must Be Hurtful To Watch Me -Have- To Be This Way -Knowing- That Others Are -Trying- To Prevent This, Yet None Seem To Be Able To, And It's Only Because It's Done Both In Ignorance And In Desperation To A Degree Where Everything Ends Up Done Only In Vain And Then I Sit Around And Tell You How That Is So And Why It Is So, Then Become Displeased With Everyone Because Of The Fact That It Is And No One Understands The Original Point That You Have Done Something Sinful That I Not Only Never Forget, But Have Already -Explicitly- Warned You About How I Deal With -Prior- And I End Up Doing So In The Fashion I Stated Only For You Not To Understand Nor Comprehend That I'm Actually Doing -Exactly- What I Said And That Has Nothing To Do With Anything You Presently Have Done And Only What I Am Doing Based On What You Haven't Done Or Did In The Past Which Cannot Be Taken Back And Is Not Accounted For Properly Because Of Everyone's Fear And Own Sense Of Personal Regret For Even Having Done It, Though Still Desiring To Use The Gap In Order To Hold Sway Over Me, Only To Find It Making Things Worse Even When You're Trying To Use It To Damage Me And Finding That I'm Not Only Not Getting Worse, I'm Getting Better And Also Dealing With You All In A Fashion That Doesn't Help Any Of You Become So, Like It Normally Would -- Only To Come Let You Know That Your Power -Does- Come From Me, Just The Same As It Had With The One You -Thought- Was Powerful For Even -Receiving- Power From Me And Being Pretty Much Worthless Without It, Even When Given The Power Of Others At The Same Time Yet Missing Mine Own."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 16 at 8:04am
"No One Really Understands Me, Anyway, Even When I Am Being Affectionate Or Intimate, And Then When I Comprehend That This Cannot Be Dealt With And I Must Remove Them, There Is A Greater Pain From The Other End Always. I Am Tired Of Being Misunderstood And Then Insulted For Being As I Am, And Others Finding It Insulting To Them -Because- Of How I Am Casually. Perhaps, It -Is- Better To Leave The Formalities As They Are, Though I Also Desire To Have These Deeper And More Intimate Personal Relations -Because- I Am Aware That Others May Need The Nurturing From My Soul. I Tire Of Suitors, In All Honesty, Though Each One Is In My Heart In Some Fashion Somehow In A Manner In Which I Am Deeply Connected And I Cherish In Some Way. I Feel Strangely Disappointed In Everyone In A Way That Makes Me Tire Of Everyone Even Trying. I Don't Mean To Be Crude Nor Harsh, Yet At The Same Time There's Not Only No Other Way, But No One Seems To Really Grasp Whatever It Is That Causes These Things To Continue On, And If They Do, They Choose Not To Because They Want To Prolong The Incident To A Point Where I Must Be Even More So Rather Than Loving And Kind, As I'd Prefer, Mostly Because They Don't Deserve It And Also Because They End Up Trying To Take Advantage Of It For Their Own Sake In Order To Make Themselves Feel Better, And Yet They Also Get Wrapped Up In It, Damaged And Then Feel Worse And Try To Make Me Feel Bad Instead Of Realizing That There Is Something -Not Done- Before They Try That Needs To Be Done -First- In Order To Even Engage With Me In That Fashion Properly At All."

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 16 at 8:11am
"I Think I Hurt Mandy A Lot In Ways I Didn't Want To And Don't Actually Like. I Don't Like To Hurt People, Believe It Or Not, And I Don't Like For It To Be In A Way I Really Like To Be Used -Strictly- For Being Loving And Intimate. I Get Tired Of It Always Ending The Same Way With No Means Of Repair Because Of It. I Especially Dislike It Because I Care About Her And The Ones I've Done It To. That Is Not Who I Am, Simply To Hurt People Like That -- Yet, What Can I Do When It Is Not Only Insisted But Also Implied To Continue To The Point Of Actual Destruction, Just As It Was In The Past? ... This Is Why I Always Get Upset. Because I Hurt People When I'm Doing That, And Then I Fear Myself More, Then I Close Up More And Refuse To Let It Out, Which Then Makes Me Seem Like I Am Meek Or Fearful When In Fact I'm Actually Just Cautious Because I Don't Like To Really Do Such Damage At All." I hope I am more understood now.

Hand of Fate; The Phantom's Corner
Published by Tymon Trini-t Tensei · August 16 at 8:24am
"I Told You That I Do Not Lie, Even When There Are Impulsive Responses Geared Toward My Own Automatic Recollection Of My Sentiments And Sedimentary Thoughts Or Feelings That I Do Not Immediately Fully Recollect Beyond Certain Bits And Pieces Of Information, Which Are Sometimes Laced Around Certain Other Bits Of Information That Were Connected And That Are Also Drawn Up With The Information That Is Good And Remembered Relatively At The Same Time, Thus Convoluted Both My Perception And The Fullness Of The Translated Information, Often Due To The Complexity Of The Scenario And The Deeper Hidden Truth That None Know About Nor Can Comprehend What Seems To Be False Without -- Just As Is With The Scenario At Hand And What Comes From Someone Withholding Key Information That Makes Something That Is So Seem Like What It Is And With It Properly Set In Place, Would Completely Alter It To What Is Proper, Even With The Initial Responses Seeming To Be Correct When They Are Actually Only A Long String Of Fabrications Coming From 'What Could Be' And Are Just Applied To The Source That Is Withholding Said Information That Would Correct The Outcomes Afterward, Similarly To What Had Been Done With A Split Impulsive Memory Of Mine That Also Settles Certain Matters Of My Own Past And Is The -Only- Solid Foundation For This Explanation At -All-."